[Yoda]

I am feeling frustrated because I somehow injured my knee and it is a slow recovery. I went to Elton John concert on June 11 and really enjoyed it. I stood for the biggest portion of the 2 1/2 hour concert. Nothing unusual happened but the next morning my right knee was all wonky. I've had pitting edema in my ankle and knee/swollen calf off and on for five weeks. I thought it would heal so didn't see a doc and I take a baby aspirin and a naprosyn tablet every night and keep it elevated most of the time. It doesn't really act like a dvt because the worst pain is above my knee when I bend it. So I don't bend it.

I had an appt with my allergist Tuesday and it was only moderately swollen but he said it is time and his nurse/office manager would give me a referral to an ortho and would call me later that day. It is now Thursday and nobody has called yet.

I was at my mom's house on July 4 and my sister who is a nurse working on an orthopedic floor remarked how swollen my leg was and suggested I might need to get it checked for a clot. So Tuesday after my allergist appt I called mom and said I was getting a consult to see an ortho and asked if my sister could tell me what tests I might expect. Mom said she was asleep on the couch. I thought maybe she would call me later or next day or something but she never called. I feel like nobody cares about me. Several years ago I felt like I was going to pass out and was downtown so I drove myself to the hospital and my blood pressure in triage was 70/35 so I got admitted and they did a complete cardiac workup except no cardiac cath. In the five days while I was inpatient nobody came to visit or even call. If I died tonight I think the only person who would notice would be my son and even he says that "family" isn't important to him.

I feel sad. What does my life matter?

[CANDC]

Hey Yoda, sorry to hear about your leg. And it is tough not being surrounded by caring, compassionate people in our closest family. Sometimes I find I just have to make the call myself.
I try and find common ground with some of the forums. Just little things that mean something to me. I really don't know what to say half the time, but I try and put myself in the other person's shoes. Hope you find some of the forums bring you in contact with people like that.
Have a good night and tomorrow is a new day.

[waiting4]

Hi Yoda...It must be very difficult what you're going thru, not only with your leg, but the reactions of your family being less than supportive to you. Families are strange..some are close, some are not...some are close but not--mine is like that. My brother and I are all we have and although we only speak to each other by phone (he lives in chicago) once or twice a year, in our hearts we care deeply for each other, and went thru so much together growing up, that the bond is solid...although more fluid than many people would find comfortable.

That said, you DO matter, please don't think otherwise. I hope things improve for you very soon

It matters
Now come on and tell how you really hurt your leg. Chasing or being chased???

[lizardlady]

Yoda, I'm sorry you are going through this. Most importantly I wanted to say you matter.