[Aviza]

I have had a superficial blood clot in my leg for 2 weeks. It has either moved, or I have another one. I had stopped taking the IBU they told me to take. I restarted it today, added aspirin a known blood thinner. I went to two ER's because they basically refused to really examine me at the first one, so now I have two big bills.

In a way I'm hoping it takes me, I mean I'm facing criminal charges over a bounced check at fleet farm, thank my con ex for that one. All I have wanted to do is resolve the issue, but they keep deflecting me to court, and pushing it further into the system. Today I emailed Fleet Farm begging them to resolve this outside of court basically. I want to pay it but have not been allowed to for one reason or another.

I'm becoming suicidal. My once clean credit report, gone, my once clean health record, gone (I have herpes now), and now I may be a criminal too? That's it I'm done. I cannot live another day in this God awful world.

My mistake was in trusting people. Believing in the good of mankind. A fool I am, a fool I was, this fool has had more than can handle one too many times in this life. It needs to end.