[Marylin]

I had trapped wind all day today,really painful,in my womb,stomach and chest,so much pain.I drank ginger,garlic,honey and lemon tea and that got rid of most of the wind,and the pain eased off eventually.There is still some soreness and residual trapped air but it doesn't hurt as much!

I was scared it was cancer but the last biopsy in January showed no cancer but just abnormal cells....it can't have become cancer already can it.Does anyone know.I do think though it is just trapped wind,it is coming out from the top and the bottom the air....I am so scared though,especially since my mum just had a hysterectomy and they said there is no cancer outside the womb but they wanted her to have weeks of radiotherapy daily,I mean that will finish her off never mind cancer.She has refused to have that thankfully.I have read radiotherapy kills most more often than it cures.

Yes I am scared that I have cancer but there are no period pains or bleeding which you expect with advanced cancer so probably once the trapped wind has completely gone I will be pain free again.

I am very low and depressed again,I don't know how to get out of it so very low I am wondering if it is this vegetable diet I am on maybe the lack of protein is harming my moods?
I feel terrible again and losing the will to go on again for the second time this week,I was so low on Monday and now am back there again which I hate!

[Skeezyks]

Hope you've begun to feel better since you wrote this post, Marylin

[Marylin]

Yes, I am feeling better today Skeezyks,thanks for asking.It is helping that we have some sunshine in the south east UK today and it is all bright and warm,makes my mood lift.
I am always having highs and lows though ,part of my illness it is ,I have schizoaffective disorder depressive type.
I have managed to keep my diet 89% healthy so far so that helps me feel more optimistic about these abnormal cells I've got....got another biopsy to have done in August.

[HeatherMercado]

Good to know that you are fine now. Yes, I will suggest you to have regular check ups even after you treatments. As many of the cancer treatments have radiation side effects. If you find any symptoms of side effects, consult your doctor as soon as possible.

[Marylin]

My latest results came back no cancer,but I do have abnormal cells,Heather.I am on anti cancer diet,if I do get cancer I have decided I will treat it naturally with diet and refuse chemo and radiation cos that makes you very sick and kills more than it cures.I will stick to gentle therapies and either find the miracle cure the natural way or live with the least amount of pain and suffering until it kills me.Those who have conventional treatments suffer more.

[Marylin]

Today I am having mixed feelings again.The date of my next biopsy is July 17th 2017.
Tonight I had a feeling that I have cancer and that I am going to die of it,I think it is more a fear rather than intuition or premonition.I don't know that I care either way,or I do but have no more strength to fight rather.I don't know anyone else that cares either about me I mean so now I feel sorry for myself and that isn't allowed is it?Maybe I should stop sharing my fears cos no one can make it all ok can they no one is going to say,yes, it does matter that you might have cancer and die of it,it matters to me cos I love you and I don't want you to die I would move heaven and earth and do all in my power for you to live and not die cos you would be a massive loss to me and to the world and to the future of the earth etc But who am I kidding,just an ordinary isolated not consequential useless part of the furniture me,to be used abused and kicked about and unappreciated and replaced when squeaky and rotten.Arhh you don't half wallow in it,you wallow in it deep lass,the whole hog,up to your neck in wallowing!

If they really thought there was active cancer going on, they wouldn't be waiting until July. They are just monitoring at this point. Try not to worry too much about it (I know. Easy said; hard to do.)