[honeybee777]

OK Yes Im going to try this again, lol, this sucks that Im the only one who posts on this thread, LOL, I know its not Psych centrals fault, nor mine either, But i sure in the hell know Im not the only one who battles with this disoder either, so Im trying to find a way to have my feller sufferers start to post, it doesnt matter what your posting just freaking post LOL.

[Grace Claire]

Hi honeybee777, I am Grace Claire and I am new. I too have HPD, so I will be joining you on the HPD threads. You sound frustrated! TTYL!

[honeybee777]

well ty, nice to meet you gracie, lets tear up this HPD thread lol

Originally Posted by honeybee777

OK Yes Im going to try this again, lol, this sucks that Im the only one who posts on this thread, LOL, I know its not Psych centrals fault, nor mine either, But i sure in the hell know Im not the only one who battles with this disoder either, so Im trying to find a way to have my feller sufferers start to post, it doesnt matter what your posting just freaking post LOL.

Thing is, considering the nature of the disorder, it may be that many with the same issues as you may not get or seek help at all. Since a lot of the traits can be things that are somewhat acceptable or even desirable by society's standards - outgoing, sometimes bubbly, confidence, etc... it may be that these traits are masked as women/people who are very extroverted. They might just see their traits as not a problem.

I liken this to the situation with BPD and men, like myself. It ws thought at one point that the number of men with BPD was far smaller than it actually is and this results from men not getting help or getting dx'd. Similarly some of the traits as a man look differently as bpd, almost as if they accept the wrecklessness of bpd as "just being a man".

Hope this helps.
~S4

[summeryoga]

Here I am!! Yes, yes, you are not alone with HPD. There are reasons I haven't been here much: I have learned to cope well (therapy and EMDR), and am learning to recognize what triggers an HPD episode of very typical HPD behaviors, and I have been sort of avoiding PC, as it made me feel all-consumed by my disorder when I was on here a lot.

And, let's be honest, HPD women can irritate other HPD women. So, no surprise that we're not all bonding here like they do at the BPD forum, etc.

But I am here - though not often - and I have been, rightfully so, dx-ed with HPD a year or so ago. Yes, we exist.

[questioning_life]

definitely not alone

[honeybee777]

well thanks you all for posting when you can, I hope this forum becomes great

[existence 77]

Originally Posted by honeybee777

OK Yes Im going to try this again, lol, this sucks that Im the only one who posts on this thread, LOL, I know its not Psych centrals fault, nor mine either, But i sure in the hell know Im not the only one who battles with this disoder either, so Im trying to find a way to have my feller sufferers start to post, it doesnt matter what your posting just freaking post LOL.

Thanks for your effort. I'm not an hpd. I work w/ one. I've been trying to learn about it and understand. I hope I'm not breaking a rule on this site. I've discovered another. Seems to have a ton more traffic and posts on this topic. If you feel kind of alone. It's called psych forums,if interested. I'm amongst the adhd's here. There's been ample postings on that. I hope it was helpful, and not offensive or anything. Take care.

[Atypical_Disaster]

Great, now when I'm dealing with my histrionic traits you're GONE!!!!!!!!

[TishaBuv]

Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster

Great, now when I'm dealing with my histrionic traits you're GONE!!!!!!!!

I'm a bit dramatic myself. I'll talk to you, AD.

[Atypical_Disaster]

Originally Posted by TishaBuv

I'm a bit dramatic myself. I'll talk to you, AD.

Hey, I remember you. How's life been?

Mine's sucked, mostly due to a weeks long manic episode but good old lithium took care of that ****.

[TishaBuv]

I just had a massive falling out with my family because my mother's a @&*((*^%#@@$$%

But I'm doing just fine.

[Atypical_Disaster]

Originally Posted by TishaBuv

I just had a massive falling out with my family because my mother's a @&*((*^%#@@$$%

But I'm doing just fine.

What did she do this time? Gah. Mothers can be witches can't they? I know mine is, HA HA HA.

[TishaBuv]

Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster

What did she do this time? Gah. Mothers can be witches can't they? I know mine is, HA HA HA.

I gave her money and had the audacity to ask for respect.

I think the way I am dysfunctional is mostly due to my relationship with my mother. After all, she's the one who taught me.

What do you think about you compared to your mother?

[Atypical_Disaster]

Originally Posted by TishaBuv

I gave her money and had the audacity to ask for respect.

I think the way I am dysfunctional is mostly due to my relationship with my mother. After all, she's the one who taught me.

What do you think about you compared to your mother?

Oh yeah how dare you! Pfft.

Honestly, I have mother issues and those all run deep.

A lot of it is that I feel that I've quite literally become my mother and I hate it.

[TishaBuv]

Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster

Oh yeah how dare you! Pfft.

Honestly, I have mother issues and those all run deep.

A lot of it is that I feel that I've quite literally become my mother and I hate it.

Do you ever hear her words coming out of your mouth? Doesn't that just freak you out? I hate when I do that.

Still, there are things she said that I vowed as a kid I would never say to my kids, and I never did. Like "because I said so". I hated when she wouldn't give me an answer and said that!

[Atypical_Disaster]

Originally Posted by TishaBuv

Do you ever hear her words coming out of your mouth? Doesn't that just freak you out? I hate when I do that.

Still, there are things she said that I vowed as a kid I would never say to my kids, and I never did. Like "because I said so". I hated when she wouldn't give me an answer and said that!

YES. Sometimes I hear myself talk and I internally freak out and go, "oh my God, that's literally what she would have said!" It's insane, and I can't seem to do much to stop it unfortunately. It has the nasty effect of causing me to feel like I'm nothing but a part of her and not my own person at all.

"Because I said so", my mother loves that one too.

I am not saying my mum has a disorder but she could throw some real histrionic OTT wobblers.
When we were getting our holiday photo's developed, she was informed the machine broke down as our was processing and were ruined.
OMG, she then burst into tears and went to town on the poor worker, trying to make her feel guilty. She said it was the only family holiday we had ever been able to afford.

I have mended my relationship with my mum, it is by no means perfect.
Sometimes in the past, I wish she didn't make out we were poor and downtrodden. My parents aren't anymore but I know money was tight as me and my sibling were growing up.

[TishaBuv]

Originally Posted by SapphireRed

I am not saying my mum has a disorder but she could throw some real histrionic OTT wobblers.
When we were getting our holiday photo's developed, she was informed the machine broke down as our was processing and were ruined.
OMG, she then burst into tears and went to town on the poor worker, trying to make her feel guilty. She said it was the only family holiday we had ever been able to afford.

Her melt down seems understandable. Taking those photo must have symbolized so much for her...then the machine broke and the photos were lost!

[TishaBuv]

I'm talking to my parents again. My mother laughs about calling me a mercinary little b. She thinks it's funny. I don't. My dad proved to be nothing. There's just nothing deeper within him. You can't get blood from a stone. So I talk to them, occasionally, not getting involved any more.

Originally Posted by SapphireRed

I am not saying my mum has a disorder but she could throw some real histrionic OTT wobblers.
When we were getting our holiday photo's developed, she was informed the machine broke down as our was processing and were ruined.
OMG, she then burst into tears and went to town on the poor worker, trying to make her feel guilty. She said it was the only family holiday we had ever been able to afford.

This was complete bull of course. My parents went out drinking four nights a week and there was always a supply of beer crates piled in the bedroom. Yet they couldn't afford to get my brother golf shoes

[Slightlydelusional]

Hi, just found out about this section. Im pretty sure I have HPD along with BP1. Ive always thought I had another disorder along with BP and I fit HPD 100%.

Just wanted to say hello and will check back if this section gets active .

[LaraR4444]

I have suspected for some time that I have hpd, but I'm not sure how to tell if it's that or that I have some of the symptoms because of other issues... Or is it still hpd if it is caused by other things, like it's a result? All I know is I have a tendency to engage in inappropriate flirting and my emotions are often seen as unusual by other people, either too strong or too weak.

This is my other dx, though I don't like to admit it. Still, this still crops up from time to time. I had a good friend just tell me he noticed that my symptoms seem to have abated lately.

I think it's true that as you get older and start dealing with your crap, symptoms do subside.

I'm kind of in denial though. I want to tell myself this isn't me anymore, but it is. Even if I am better at hiding it now. But I still get caught up in the roles I play some times. But TBH, I still don't know who I am some times.

I was dx'd with Hpd during my first visit to a mental hospital.

Before 4 years ago (when I was first diagnosed with a PD), I never bothered to look inside myself or introspect. And I admit, looking inside myself and facing my feelings has been the hardest thing I've ever had to do.