I am all alone

Nothing pains me more then feeling alone. My husband is truck driving, so Im raising my kids all alone. The only place I feel not alone is here in chat, or at church, but even then I feel that most of the time, I give so much of myself, that im still alone. This aloness triggers my HPD and my Conversion so bad that i get sick alot, and what hurts more is that i dont feel like anyone really cares, I have few freinds here that i really could call freinds, like close, but even they have their own issues going on that , mine seem so small incomparsent. How do you survive this? My mother doesnt speak to me, she is a alcogolic and hasnt been in my life, my father abandoned me when i was a child, my grandfathern molested me for 13 years, my grandmother had me steal beer for her when i was little, so for obvoisus reason they wernt invovled either, those were my grandparent on my mothers side. My father side were never invovled. I luckily have two brother, that i raised myself my mother was checked out, we are verfy close, but the damnaged to all of us were done that they have no idea how to support, I was the only one who really sought treament. One of my brothers live with me, the other one is in ajil as of now for false charges from his crazy ex wife. I dont know what to do anymore, Im tierd i dont want to go into my old behavoirs oh HPD but just me typing these few things out you can see why i have the HPD in the freaking first place. One thing i have is GOD and my childeren, thansk god for them, I feel very on edge latley, and alone, maybe that my portion in life is to be alone, THEN I WILL ADJUST,

I'm sorry you're struggling so. Some people are okay with being alone sometimes, especially introverts. Note that we do have a social group for people who are lonely, if you do decide to get in contact with folks--and other social groups as well.

I can feel, alone when im in a crowed room , if im not getting attention I need, Im really trying to get away from that behavior, but it seems to drive me, payne1 can you link me the forum to that you spoke of up above thanks

I don't have HPD, but I can relate to feeling alone all the time. If you ever do want to talk to someone, feel free to send me a message. I don't always know what to say but I can listen and care.

I will take you up on that