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So my insurance company calls my therapist like every 8 weeks for updates on my progress, therapy goals and future plans. My employer....by the way....is contracted with them for UNLIMITED therapy sessions( I am sure there are loop holes). They are asking for me to see a psychiatrist and why I haven't yet and a goal to get down to one session a week. Well my T feels I should see a psychiatrist even if it is for Xanax review(my primary care MD takes care of that and I only use it as needed).

I fear seeing a pdoc. I feel if I do some how I am giving over control. I went to therapy on my own accord....no one knew I have an eating disorder and they still don't. I won't be honest with his questions about suicidal thoughts for fear of him losing my freedom. The same with self injury(which I have not had to in a couple of weeks). I also feel he want me to go on other meds and tell the insurance company I refuse to take them. Then what?

sounds like you might need to reach out for some help, MoxieDoxie, if you feel you may hurt yourself!!!! That might even override your other fears, though, believe me, I can certainly relate. Please take care of yourself!

Oh, MoxieDoxie, I feel for you. Fear is an awful thing. Whether you see a psychiatrist or not you need to tell your therapist the truth. They can't help if they don't know the whole story. I know it is hard to discuss things like self-harm and eating disorders but it is very important to your getting better. I hope you choose to see the pyschiatrist. I think it might help you but only if you are honest. Otherwise, they won't know the kind of pain you are going through. Good luck.
Gayle