Part-Time work

I am BROOOOOKE and desperate. I cant find any side odd jobs to make money anymore. I am trying to get disability but I am just only collecting medical records at the moment.

Will it be wrong to get a part time job while trying to do this? also, I get my pdoc cheaper because im unemployed. im so confused and stressed!

I am in the process of trying to get disability (denied the first time), and my lawyer told me that one of the biggest mistakes people make is working while they are applying for disability. Looking like you CAN work is the exact opposite of what you are saying you can do when you are applying.

Collecting medical records is a part of the disability process once you apply, so I would suggest you go ahead and apply. Your medical records will be collected from any source that you list, although I suggest that you follow up with your doctors to make sure that your records are requested of them and that they are sent in in a timely manner (because unless you hire a lawyer, no one is really looking out for you in this matter but you).

Ok I have been referred to a lawyer. He works for free til ya get it. We will see.

go to a job fair

If you can work, that's the whole point. If you can find a job and do it, that is a good thing, not a bad one.

I somehow get a job than I screw up then I hate myself and doubt I can ever do ANYTHING ever right. Then I si then I sometimes wanna die. And most of the time, I quit. I get introuble because I cannot do things perfect and when Ive messed up I get so stressed that I forget even more things. Its a never ending cycle.

I understand how you feel, the same thing has been happening to me for 3 years now. I'm working a part time job and applying for disability. In most states you can earn up to $1000 and still be eligible for ssdi

So while that is technically true, that figure is actually in context referring to those who have already been approved for ssdi, are currently in the program, and are then looking to begin working again. It means that you can still maintain your benefits and make up to a specific amount per month before you move into a specific phase in the program after you begin to earn above that amount.

Earning below or above $1000/month is generally not factored into the approval/denial process of SSDI.

Also- while the main issue is whether you can be "self-supporting", if you are maintaining a part-time job, that still indicates stability. So, I believe in the logic of SSA, that also indicates an ability to find some kind of work which would enable you to be self-supporting.

In my experience, which includes my own case as well as helping several people apply and simply being an observer to many many situations involving the application and approval/denial process- it is rare to be approved if you have part-time employment during the application process.

My experience is obviously NOT all encompassing, but I do believe it is a rare situation to be approved while working.

I don't stay stable for very long at a time. One day I may feeling amazing and do lots of things around me and the next I want to be here anymore and I just lay in my bed or hide in my room. Its hard for me to be consistent day to day. If I start one job it takes me a long time to stay level headed enough to get it down. I get so stressed so quickly and depressed so quickly/deeply that its hard for me to catch up.

I'm only relating to you what my experience has been both as an observer and a participant in the process. I don't make the decisions.

I know that. I am just explaining where I am coming from. I *want* be healthy "normal" and able to work a regular job like I used to. But I have struggled with my mental health issues since I was 17 and this past year has been the absolute worst. Its taken me pretty low and I am lucky to be here. Not being able to keep a job and not having insurance really limits your resources for the help I need. My pdoc told me this is a option and she thinks I need the accessibility to more resources. This was a very hard decision for me to make. I don't want the title of "disabled" but I want to be able to afford the help I know I need.

Yeah, I know it's frustrating and hard to figure out what to do while you're waiting. Unfortunately, the reason we apply for disability is because we CAN'T work ,but at the same time, we sitll need to eat and pay bills--so getting a job seems like something you need to do. But then, SS sees that, and well you know---we end up in a catch22. I've been about two years fighting with this thing. I've wanted to get a job, but then that would mess things up--and I don't even know if I could keep the job.