[redbandit]

I filed over a year ago, when I was having a complete breakdown . I'm bipolar, and have lots of episodes. I have been working part time since September, so I highly doubt they'll consider my case. However, I finally got a court hearing date for next month.
I was going to withdraw my claim, esp since a lady I talked to said it could take two years to even schedule a hearing .
To me this is an ethical dilemma . I've never been well enough to work full time. I don't want to try to take money from people that need it more though. I feel like if I had just a little financial help, my health could really improve . I have insurance, but can't afford a pdoc.
Doesn't make sense why my insurance barely covers anything . They tried to bill me $5,000 after testing me for allergies...long story , I'm rambling sorry
Any thoughts? Thanks for reading

[Faking sane]

I know how you feel. I have never been able to hold onto a job for every long because of meltdowns like that. I have applied for,disability, but we're having trouble making ends meet while we wait. We don't have insurance because the prices and deductibles are ridiculous. I am so tempted to just keep skipping through and failing in one job after another, but at 43 I think it's time I stopped jumping from crisis to crisis and learned whatever it is that normal people know about how to manage their lives. I think you should continue with your application. People who want to work but need help getting well so that they can make the most of themselves should never feel guilty about getting that help.

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[UnderRugSwept]

Have you talked to a lawyer? In general a lawyer should not collect unless you win. It's worth finding a good one and running your situation by him or her.
I am currently waiting for a hearing to be scheduled (I was told it would be about a year). Are you seeing a T? Just wondering if you have any medical records. I don't want to sound discouraging, but my lawyer told me that one of the worst things someone can do is work, because the process is all about proving you can't work. I am not saying you shouldn't try, but I think you should talk to someone first before you get stuck unprepared in a hearing. I know mine is very far away, but it already makes me sick to my stomach with anxiety thinking about it.
Hugs to you!

[redbandit]

Yeah, I was working with a lawyer . No T at the moment, but I've seen therapists and psychiatrists, etc for years .
I feel really dumb, because I had apparently already withdrawn my claim, or at least I did before I got any feedback on here . anyway, I know what I should do, I just like advice? Lol
The thing is, it's very hard to win, esp since I'm young and have a college degree . So I've been told . Since I've been working (part time ), my psyche and everything is a LOT better!
Idk what it is, I just get depressed if I can't work . And I know there are people who can't work at all, since that isn't me right now, I don't want to take money away from them.
It's very unlikely that I'd win, and I'm sick of all the paperwork . I'm only 27, and I've made a lot of progress in this past year . I'd like to think by next year, I might be able to have a full time job, or a second part time job. That's my next goal .
Thanks for the feedback!