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I have mentioned time and time again my dysphoria and how i feel,testing the waters by saying I'm genderfluid and my dad SAID okay but he seems to be in denial and my parents call me heavily gendered pet names and the likes and i want a haircut but they don't want ti to look too masculine. They want me to stop binding my chest. They will probably never agree to get me on T which sucks because i wanna do it before I'm 18 which is next year and i just have so much dysphoria. Life can be nice sometimes but it kills me to think i may never truly be cmfortable. I will probably never get the hormones or surgery because it would upset them so much I'm their only afab child. Maaannn dysphoria was bad today. I vaguely said before that my body didn't feel right and thT it was a phase ,which i do have phases. They never last long. I've been struggling with this since i was in middle school,I'd say 7th grade. I knew i wanted to be a boy. But even before that i think. I have lame memory but yeah. I just want the rest of society to see me as male. I FEEL more male than anything ... I Don't know anymore i hate feeling this.This sucks.

[kraken1851]

Hey,
I'm sorry it's difficult for you and that your parents aren't entirely supportive. Have you tried sitting them down for a good long talk? I could imagine they're in denial somehow, pretending this will go away. Especially if you mentioned to them yourself it might be a phase.

Also, do you have access to counseling? This could be helpful for you but it could also help assuring your parents that you're not "rushing" into anything and are very sure about transitioning.

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Originally Posted by kraken1851

Hey,
I'm sorry it's difficult for you and that your parents aren't entirely supportive. Have you tried sitting them down for a good long talk? I could imagine they're in denial somehow, pretending this will go away. Especially if you mentioned to them yourself it might be a phase.

Also, do you have access to counseling? This could be helpful for you but it could also help assuring your parents that you're not "rushing" into anything and are very sure about transitioning.

no counselors to speak with unfortunately, my school one doesn't seem interested in talking about my personal stuff...yes, it sometimes gets really difficult, but i live in Texas, and that's not exactly a safe to be anything LGBT i suppose... i have wanted to transition for some time, in reality only two and a half year that i was certain it's what i want,but it feels like forever,ha..
they want it to be a phase,say i'll grow out of it. honestly I've never told them they were right or that it was a phase, i would always just quietly sit there, my throat probably wouldn't have allowed me to talk back anyways. (you know when it gets a closed up feeling when you get emotional?)
I've asked them to see a professional, i did somewhat imply it may have been a phase once-but i was just really desperate at that time-i'd say...seven months ago? I remember being on the brink of crying, "i'm serious about talking to a therapist or SOMETHING-maybe, maybe i might even change my mind i don't know this is why i want to-" but oh well. i guess i'll wait til i can make my own choices by myself. though my feelings and dysphoria and general depression have been consistent,that'll probably be good for me anyway. another year to figure things out by myself some more. Thanks for the advice ^^ it has helped