I'm sorry you all, but it's like we've hit a wall. Short of winning the lottery, I cant live as myself. There are social, public, family barriers plus the internal ones. At least I have no more friends to deal with. The moment I do go over that one last hump, I lose my job, life, and any meager funding. This is a matter of survival....but I'm so close to not being able to live this way much longer.

Its been a severly depressing weekend. I'm at war with myself and the world and it is so vexingly tiring. At least my doggies love me before I feed them. Sigh.

Just a rant. Thanx for not barring me.

[Skeezyks]

Hello AlwaysChanging2: No apologies necessary. You have to do what is right for you. I've made the same choice.

[Skeezyks]

Hi again AlwaysChanging2: I wanted to add a thought here. Actually, I was mulling over your post yesterday evening. What occurred to me was that it wasn't all that many years ago sacrificing oneself for the sake of one's family, subjugating one's personal desires for the benefit of others, was considered the noble thing to do. Nowadays it seems the culture has "evolved" (?) to a point where not being willing to lay waste to everything & everyone in one's life in pursuit of one's own personal fulfillment is seen as something for which one must apologize. I have to say I question to what extent that could be considered to be progress...

[Yours_Truly]

Just wanted to send a hug...

Originally Posted by Skeezyks

Hi again AlwaysChanging2: I wanted to add a thought here. Actually, I was mulling over your post yesterday evening. What occurred to me was that it wasn't all that many years ago sacrificing oneself for the sake of one's family, subjugating one's personal desires for the benefit of others, was considered the noble thing to do. Nowadays it seems the culture has "evolved" (?) to a point where not being willing to lay waste to everything & everyone in one's life in pursuit of one's own personal fulfillment is seen as something for which one must apologize. I have to say I question to what extent that could be considered to be progress...

Hi. An Other was ranting. Here in the South USA its pretty much not as liberal as the North. For instance, in Texas....you'll be beat up and shot for being lgbt or gt. In our line of work (construction)....need I say more?

Anyways, not all of us feel that way. Actually, I dont care myself. They can KMA- except at work because we gals are fibbidden out for safety and thriving sake.