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i post here ...about a week Or so ago but then i got the mods to delette it
Am transgender ( Non Binary) but of late i have wanted to be at a church who would be less understanding about this tonight i have made up my mind not to go there again and ill go to a church where id be welcome to go to there is one near to were i live my husband been trying to tell me i should have been going that one now i believe him and we will be going next Sunday a few months ago i came out to my family my bio dad included said id like to be call Alex ...my bio dad got heart problems and bad health he said he would move close to us told the rest of the family he was then about 5 months ago he said he was going to spain in hope he'd be well again with his gf ( never met her dont know if she is real or not ) he said he'd be 3 months that was 5 months ago we have no way to contact him yet he said he has taken our numbers down but 3 months have came went its now been 5 months and we have heard nothing he has a great granddaughter who is nearly a year old and he has only seen her once and prominence he move up etc looks like he was talk out his *** so screw him if he dont like the fact am trans he could have said something instead of doing this that why i never told anyone at that church or to anyone else that am Trans
i go to a mental health group as well and people where calling me Alex until that happened and then i change it back to my female name now am going to have to tell them all to calll me Alex again ( they will be sick of me )

but am not hiding anymore for anyone MY NAME IS ALEX and am living my life as a Trans and if no one likes that they can go and **** off
the only other person who dont like it is my mum but she thinks mental health is attention seeking i hardly talk to her
my sister and the rest of my family are fine about it
and even if they where am not hiding it now

[Skeezyks]

The Skeezyks celebrates your determination to live as your true self...

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i dont know WTF I AM i cant be a child of the lord and be trangender

[Skeezyks]

Hi Asphyxia: Yes, I know of your struggle. I read the post you had taken down. I didn't reply because I didn't think I had anything to offer. I think I probably still don't... But I can't help but give it a try. The Skeezyks is not a religious person. However, as a person who has struggled with gender identity disorder his entire life, I do think I understand something of the confusion & despair it can bring to a person's life.

Please forgive me if I ramble a bit here. I'm struggling to try to find something that may be of some comfort to you. A few years ago now, I was quite active on YouTube & came to know quite a few trans YouTubers who were documenting their transitions. Quite a few of them considered themselves to be devout Christians & perceived no conflict between their faith & their trans-ness. So... what I take from this is that perhaps faith, like beauty, is in the eyes of the beholder. In other words, it's really up to you to decide whether or not one can be both Christian & trans at the same time.

One thing I have come to believe, over the years, is that no one knows any more about what does, or doesn't, lie beyond this life than I do. And I don't know anything. And they don't either... although there are plenty of people out there who would like me to think they do. The reality is my personal opinion is as absolutely as valid as anyone else's. That being the case, your personal opinion has absolutely as much validity as anyone else's. You get to decide.

There was an interesting Associated Press article in our local newspaper yesterday with regard to Mother Teresa. Apparently there is some personal correspondence of hers that has recently come to light. And what it reveals is that she felt abandoned by God... almost all of her adult life. "For nearly 50 years, Mother Teresa endured what the church calls a 'dark night of the soul'-- a period of spiritual doubt, despair and loneliness that many of the great mystics experienced..."

I imagine we all experience this "dark night of the soul" to one degree or another. Some clearly experience it more deeply, & for longer periods, than others. Perhaps the despair & confusion you are feeling over whether or not you can be both trans & Christian is something akin to your own dark night of the soul. And the good news is, I believe, you get to choose how you respond to that dark night. The lesson we can learn from Mother Teresa, I believe, is that in spite of those feelings of abandonment, spiritual doubt, despair & loneliness we can persevere & do good work in the world.

I wish you well...

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thank you for replying , Am feeling better and am ok about being Christian and Trans
Talked to a friend who is a pastor and who is trans what he said help and also want you said Skeezyks
Sometime because of my OCD i believe things that people in the church says are bad like being gay or trans or not being married and having children
etc Jesus love us for us not for something that should be or made to me