[icetruck]

As a child of 7 my first exposure to porn was highly disturbing. I was in a local corner shop and some inconsiderate dolt had left a magazine within reach of my ever curious hands, i.e. on the bottom shelf.
Seeing something unfamiliar and forbidden I naturally opened it up and was presented with images of transexual males legs spreadeagled. This would not have been especially traumatic (I wouldnt have realised I was looking at men) had it not been for the fact that they were not post op - the scrotums were still attached to the vagina.
For an adult even the words exact disgust but for a child... the vagina itself is visually stunning if I consider it as an artist but as a man there is absolutely no sexual attraction for me.
Clearly this experience coloured my adult perception and this is a heartbreaker for me. I am deeply deeply romantic and sex for me is beyond carnal so the fact that that such a vital part of my lover holds absolutely no fascination for me is a huge...blow
I need a solution. Its been 12 years or so now and thankfully my brain compensated by transferring the attraction to other areas. However that isnt acceptable to me. The female body is a playground - every inch of it should be loved.

[DocClyde]

I don't mean this mean, because I definitely understand--but what happened to you seeing this?

Is it harder to have sex, or do you obsess over it with your OCD?

[icetruck]

I thought i'd made it clear sorry. I wanted to edit the post actually lol but there doesnt seem to be an edit facility
Basically I now have an aversion to that part of a woman's body due to the image. Its tainted my sexuality essentially and I just cannot have real meaningful sex because of it.

[anthony81]

in my experience,
I first discovered "transgender" porn a few years ago. I never even knew about it until something inside mean yearned for "rear" stimulation. This was in my mid 20s. Hard to describe unless you feel it yourself.

I became completely obsessed with it. I even acted out scenes and saw myself in scenes as both top and bottom. I soon realized this type of porn aroused me more than any other. I stopped watching "regular" sex scenes as they did nothing for me anymore, yet trans porn made me really huge!

It later caused me to question whether I was gay or trans myself! I struggled and even tried being intimate with real trans girls. Yet in real life situations the penetration felt very uncomfortable and awkward at first.

I soon read that the male biology causes the prostate to be extremely stimulated during colorectal penetration of some sort. It causes much more intense orgasms in a guy.

It has clouded my ability to really date and have sexual relations with normal girls.. as a straight guy which I am. because "enjoyable" sex for me involves such raunchy activities yet most girls will not partake in that.