why am i socially awkward?

I have become so socially awkward over the past few years. I don't know what to say to people or how to act. I try to be funny but it ends up hurting people. I just prefer to be alone then with people and my dad is a strong believer in social skills and behavior. but I just cant do it. I truthfully don't like people. I do talk to people from school threw texts and sometimes in person. but im more comfortable alone and that doesn't happen in school. I prefer to stay in my room where I feel safest. I want to socialize with people but I get really nervous and I start to sweat and stutter. its strange. I used to be a social butterfly but after my year with depression I found myself not knowing how to act around people. I mean I do go over the fire station and talk and laugh their but they are like family to. its just with people my own age. I don't like them. they are just to cruel and immature for my taste. its strange though

Do you feel you may be forcing yourself on people, or trying too hard?

I am just like you. (Sorry for bumping this thread) I know I'm good enough to order food in restaurants or talk over the phone (to buy things) but I'd never chat to anyone if I didn't have to. There's just no appropriate place to do it in. If I needed help in my studies I'd know who to talk to. I am aware that one day I'll no longer be studying and will have to look for a job, so...

I don't try. if someone starts to talk to me. I force myself to talk back. if I could I would put head phones in all day and stay in my own world. I prefer talking to older people. I feel more comfortable talking to them

Why do you feel more comfortable talking to older people? What makes it more comfortable?

to me adults are more understanding and less judgmental.

Older adults, in general, or just people that are even a little older than you?

Is a lot of it do you feel that your same classmates do not understand you?

even if they are a few years older

Do you feel it is because they are more mature or do they project more maturity to you?

I prefer to talk to older people because they are more mature and more understanding then kids my age.

Perhaps you are more mature than most kids your age as well, then