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Old Feb 16, 2018, 06:43 AM
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Despite the PSA & biopsy results, it sounds like you're managing to keep grounded. I'm glad you were able to score a professor to do your surgery. I recently had shoulder surgery (small potatoes, but controversial due to its relative lack of success). Since I also had a professor preform my surgery, the results were amazing. I hope you have the same experience. Keep posting to let us know how things are moving along.
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Old Feb 17, 2018, 07:06 AM
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Stress is really having an influence greater than what I would like.
And still, the waiting continues.
I shall I fear be a ball of jelly soon.
I don't have any male friends which make it worse.
Very lovely.
Thanks for all the support .
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Old Feb 23, 2018, 01:59 AM
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Stress is really having an influence greater than what I would like.
And still, the waiting continues.
I shall I fear be a ball of jelly soon.
I don't have any male friends which make it worse.
Very lovely.
Thanks for all the support .
Ok got the dates.

Thought I would feel relieved but just lost
The only thing is I am a bit superstitious on numbers
I was born 1961 1st in the ninth
My kids 11/11
9/9
Now the date of my op is 4/4

Have 2 weeks to get the results of final blood

Now it seems I have to fit into everybody else plans
Lucky its Easter holidays then.
Nobody will notice any of this I can guarantee.
Everyone keeps saying its nothing
Having someone take a part of you out is a weird feeling but to take such a diseased part and leave you with a gamble of life or happiness or being that man is all elementary now.
I will be given what I deserve.
Maybe I will feel different after the latest blood come back.
The story is nearly changed .
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Old Feb 26, 2018, 08:27 PM
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Ok got the dates.

Thought I would feel relieved but just lost
The only thing is I am a bit superstitious on numbers
I was born 1961 1st in the ninth
My kids 11/11
9/9
Now the date of my op is 4/4

Have 2 weeks to get the results of final blood

Now it seems I have to fit into everybody else plans
Lucky its Easter holidays then.
Nobody will notice any of this I can guarantee.
Everyone keeps saying its nothing
Having someone take a part of you out is a weird feeling but to take such a diseased part and leave you with a gamble of life or happiness or being that man is all elementary now.
I will be given what I deserve.
Maybe I will feel different after the latest blood come back.
The story is nearly changed .
Ok and now the final blood result has come in and the winning number is 4.5
Up .9 so if I didn't know already and what people are starting to realise now is that
I have cancer and its just going to affect them ..how???

The best indignity so far was overhearing

"So you won't be having sex then?"
Overheard my neighbour asking my wife.

The ideas and dream to get things done beforehand are over.
Did I mention I did my shoulder I as well so that needs an op as well?

And Feb hasn't finished.
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Old Mar 08, 2018, 03:12 AM
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Ok and now the final blood result has come in and the winning number is 4.5
Up .9 so if I didn't know already and what people are starting to realise now is that
I have cancer and its just going to affect them ..how???

The best indignity so far was overhearing

"So you won't be having sex then?"
Overheard my neighbour asking my wife.

The ideas and dream to get things done beforehand are over.
Did I mention I did my shoulder I as well so that needs an op as well?

And Feb hasn't finished.
To say that a broken rib is a better outlook or result for the day would be a gross understatement indeed.
It seems that as March has started with such a band and doesn't look like slowing down .( i hope). the doctors thought and hoped it hadn't spread but now they are not so sure.
I am the sort of person to have a wake while I'm still here or at least an orgy.
( don't deny a person's last request)
Even if it is a pipe dream
It keeps me going instead of curling up in a ball.
It is a scary thing to go through .
To be continued . for a while yet
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Old Mar 15, 2018, 06:12 AM
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Ok down to the last 3 weeks now and wouldn't you know it had to go and turn itself into a serious cancer . on the scale of bad things it is right up there.
The other glorious news . I have torn the tendons in my left shoulder
Nobody is really talking about both
This is where I get to walk alone .
Happy days
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Old Mar 15, 2018, 06:14 AM
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Here's one I don't think there might be a simple answer to.
Progressing along this road of illness and the uncertainty of it all I now find myself with the early stages of becoming impudent or it feels like it not being able to perform properly in the bedroom. God it is hurting the ego . For what is a man when he can't be a man?

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Old Mar 22, 2018, 05:57 PM
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So 2 weeks to go and so far the mental ride is over . it has all gone like I had imagined.
Nobody really cared and once again everything is about everyone else.
I have given up on support so I must fight the fears and do it by myself.

At least I have scored some good medical staff to do the job.
The only trouble is the little horror is getting worse and growing faster the closer the date rolls around.
Then on top of everything I don't get sick all year but the flu is circling .
On top of everything else or have I used that phase 'on top of everything else '
To many times?
We will see
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Old Mar 26, 2018, 05:35 AM
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So 2 weeks to go and so far the mental ride is over . it has all gone like I had imagined.
Nobody really cared and once again everything is about everyone else.
I have given up on support so I must fight the fears and do it by myself.

At least I have scored some good medical staff to do the job.
The only trouble is the little horror is getting worse and growing faster the closer the date rolls around.
Then on top of everything I don't get sick all year but the flu is circling .
On top of everything else or have I used that phase 'on top of everything else '
To many times?
We will see
So last app with therapist for awhile .
Everything was find and dandy with me dodging the final question of death options if it all went wrong .
Don't fret
After I got home the 4 blank lines made sense.
It's not that I am afraid of death ( anyone that tells you they are not is lying in the end)
What the last 4 lines under options were rather the death of how life is now as to how I will handle life aftwards.
So either way I have settled that question.
More to follow
But its not long now
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Old Apr 03, 2018, 05:31 PM
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Today , the day before surgery (if i make it.. had to give sample late yesterday to see im sick or not )
If you can think of something to go wrong ..it has
Even trying just to sit and do nothing is wrong
The psychological fight im losing as well
I am down to a world of IFs
If the car goes
If the blood comes back ok
If i get the ok
If they take it all out
Even at this late date i can only see up to there.
And still in the background all i can hear is " there is nothing to worry about everybody does it. You will be fine"

I dont think they have had to face it
Most things i have heardhave been form men with enlarged prostrates . Not cancer at such a young age.

This has been a great help

Thankyou for the replies and advice .
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Old Apr 03, 2018, 05:44 PM
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My dad just had his prostate removed he had cancer but now is cancer free. Just be aware that recovery sucks
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Old Apr 03, 2018, 06:06 PM
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My dad just had his prostate removed he had cancer but now is cancer free. Just be aware that recovery sucks
Thankyou for sharing Teddy Bear . Iam in nomans land just now . Before op and before even thinking of recovery yet
I know the hazards but just hope for the best .
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Old Apr 05, 2018, 11:46 PM
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Well had my op yesterday and so far pain has been horrid and all thetubes

Will
Wrap up later
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Hope you have a speedy recovery!
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Old Apr 09, 2018, 04:10 PM
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Hope you have a speedy recovery!
Thanks minow the road ahead should be interesting to say the least .
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Old Apr 29, 2018, 07:17 PM
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And here it is end of april and 4 hospital admissions later .i am still hooked up to tubes and fighting infection.
Had a sever allergic reation which led to a 3am rush to surgery which was canceled at the last minute.

Besides all that I havent begun to get my head around being free of this demon cancer.
I have been busy trying just to cope with the fight I have inside myself.
Just a simple hug
Its amazing all the little things you crave when you cant have them.
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daggy, I hope this note finds you recovering in more comfort.
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Old May 02, 2018, 01:10 AM
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daggy, I hope this note finds you recovering in more comfort.
Unfortunately minnow everytime it looks like im winning I get something else to slow me down.
Hope this week finds a better solution.
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Old Dec 17, 2018, 08:13 AM
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So here it is December 2018. Prostate went. Replaced with a good dose of ED with a side of incontinence just a little.
And PSA of 0 trying to find friends that sort of getting where I'm coming from is useless. Lost 2 to misunderstandings.
With all that and the mental stuff, you go through it is so hard a time for a man.
I hope I make it maybe.
Thanks for the advice along the way .
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Old Jan 15, 2019, 02:15 AM
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Middle of Jan 2019 and have resigned to waiting.
Waiting for something good to happen
Waiting for a decent blood supply to come back.
Waiting for my imagination to turn off.
Waiting for the pain of not being able to have sex.
Just waiting
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Old Jan 21, 2019, 12:42 AM
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Ok fully fighting impotence now is there any place one can go to get some cyber release?
Coming up to 12 months after op and psychologically losing the fight
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Old Feb 06, 2019, 12:40 PM
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"Waiting for my imagination to turn off.
Waiting for the pain of not being able to have sex.
Just waiting"

I'm a 26-year-old virgin. The pain of not having sex isn't too bad for me. there's a lot in life, outside of sex.
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Old Feb 07, 2019, 06:53 PM
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Ok fully fighting impotence now is there any place one can go to get some cyber release?
Coming up to 12 months after op and psychologically losing the fight
If oh if all these medicines and injections worked. .just once.
Another urologist at the end of Feb.
My marriage is hanging by a thread even though I am stumbling from one thing to the other. 8 yrs after the first signs.
I don't know how many years this has to go on for but I can see why they put taking it out until a man is older.
Trouble is mine had to come out.
36 yrs of sex life and 10 lovers later is all I got.

Fighting the good fight i hope
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Old Feb 07, 2019, 11:37 PM
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I am glad I wrote all those posts before and after. I made some mistakes along the way and probably still am going to.
Plus I found who to trust and who doesn't care.
Only have the mental fight to instant and whip.
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Old Feb 20, 2019, 10:33 PM
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2019 feb
Prostate gone
Cancer spread
Another 3 months and then the fight begins
I hope i hold out mentally at least.
8 years of waiting and it came down to this
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