Your opinions, NPD or no?

Starlana · Jul 12, 2014, 07:06 AM

Hey guys, this will seem odd, but I need info. I am a nursing student, and I recently discovered I have all the symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder. According to what I've read, 80% of Borderlines suffer from additional disorders, and I think Narcissism may be one I have some traits of. So...about me.

Um, I am really intelligent, so I don't know if knowing that makes me a narcissist or just honest. I was in gifted classes when I was younger, and can be a straight A student if I wanted to put forth that much effort. I score high on exams when pitted against the general public, like for the nursing entry exam, I scored in the 96th percentile nationwide. So...my point is, I think I am really smart, and can learn anything if I put in the effort, so I am not sure if thinking that about myself makes me "narcissistic" or not.

I think I am pretty attractive. Again, not sure if that is more of a fact or if I have an exaggerated sense of self. I have a wide jaw and high cheekbones; features attributed to models. My body shape is more of a hourglass shape, which I feel fortunate to have. I don't spend hours and hours in the bathroom, and I do realize there are better looking women out there than me. I do, however, feel like I have a unique look and feel attractive and confident most of the time.

I read something about narcissists don't want to deal with lower level customer service reps, etc. I have felt this way before, mainly from dealing with them for hours (in the past) just to be passed up the chain (after my time was wasted) or having to file a report with the BBB. I will try to deal with them, but if I feel I am getting nowhere, or they are not understanding, I will ask to speak to a manager.

I don't feel I have an attitude of entitlement. I actually feel people get what they work for, and I should have to work just as hard as everyone else to achieve success. I don't feel I should walk into a career and instantly be the manager, but that I should prove my worthiness through hard work. I do feel I have leadership qualities, but sometimes prefer things to be simpler and to enjoy a little less responsibility.

I do feel empathy for others. No question about that. I don't know if I am capable of really strong love feelings, like, being "in-love". Like, I can be infatuated, or really taken by someone (borderline), but if things don't work out I get over it pretty quickly. Usually, after sleeping with someone, I will lose interest after, although some relationships will drone on...and on...long after they should have ended.

I think most people would say I am charismatic. I am known to have a slightly perverse sense of humor, and I am very flirtatious. I love sexual innuendos.

My weaknesses are my temper, seeing people generally as disposable if they do not "improve" my life or situation, and my shifting moods and irritability. I generally keep most of my negative thoughts of other people to myself, unless I snap. Like, if someone smells awful, I don't tell them "go put on deodorant, you stink" but rather just suck it up and deal with it, maybe try not to sit next to them again! lol

Anyway, I don't know. Before it is even said, yes, I know I need to see a psychotherapist for a clinical diagnosis. I just want your personal opinions guys. Or else I'd be in a therapists office right now. Thank you for your time reading this, I'd be happy to answer any additional questions you might have.

Walkingaround · Jul 12, 2014, 11:16 AM

Hi,

I'm not professional. But if you are able to feel empathy, i would take wild guess, and say that your not.

Of course, NPD comes with different shades and shadows, but lack of empathy is mostly in all of them.

Atypical_Disaster · Jul 12, 2014, 12:02 PM

I'm not a professional but as a narcissist myself I have to say you don't sound like you have NPD to me.

Starlana · Jul 14, 2014, 10:09 AM

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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster

I'm not a professional but as a narcissist myself I have to say you don't sound like you have NPD to me.

Thank you for your input.

Starlana · Jul 14, 2014, 10:10 AM

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Originally Posted by Walkingaround

Hi,

I'm not professional. But if you are able to feel empathy, i would take wild guess, and say that your not.

Of course, NPD comes with different shades and shadows, but lack of empathy is mostly in all of them.

Thank you for your input! I appreciate it.

Jul 15, 2014, 11:35 PM

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Originally Posted by Starlana

Hey guys, this will seem odd, but I need info. I am a nursing student, and I recently discovered I have all the symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder. According to what I've read, 80% of Borderlines suffer from additional disorders, and I think Narcissism may be one I have some traits of. So...about me.

Um, I am really intelligent, so I don't know if knowing that makes me a narcissist or just honest.

No, i don't think your BPD , more like the person in the book "Confessions of a Sociopath " a life spent hiding in plain sight. by M.E. Thomas.

Are you describing " Red Empathy " as getting off on someone's distress , instead of real empathy ?

Jul 18, 2014, 02:30 PM

Your relationships have been unfulfilled and boring because you haven't been with a "N" yet. We make everything so much better,interesting and fun in the beginning at least.... Much more so than anybody else!!!!

As for your vain parts I think that's normal.

And last but not least, because you wouldn't tell a smelly person they stink you are officially not a narcissist!!!!( Still making myself laugh)

Walkingaround · Jul 19, 2014, 12:41 AM

Underground.. you just made my day

Jul 19, 2014, 04:23 PM

See and you been feeling so down lately. I am good aren't I?

Starlana · Jul 19, 2014, 11:02 PM

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Originally Posted by Underground

Your relationships have been unfulfilled and boring because you haven't been with a "N" yet. We make everything so much better,interesting and fun in the beginning at least.... Much more so than anybody else!!!!

As for your vain parts I think that's normal.

And last but not least, because you wouldn't tell a smelly person they stink you are officially not a narcissist!!!!( Still making myself laugh)

HAHA, that's funny.

Gingy01 · Jul 20, 2014, 12:32 AM

If you get tired of underground (which you will) I am also available.

But take a spin with him so you can fully appreciate perfect.

Walkingaround · Jul 20, 2014, 01:28 AM

Oh yes, you are.

Jul 20, 2014, 08:18 AM

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Originally Posted by Gingy01

If you get tired of underground (which you will) I am also available.

But take a spin with him so you can fully appreciate perfect.

What is this all about? Are you trying to push to see if I will push back? It's ok if you seek my acknowledgment you don't have to do it in such a negative way though. You see I've been here a little longer than you. I have written many serious posts and I do believe I am respected in this forum. So to come out and try to bash me notice how others have completely bypassed your comment and continued to respond to me.... What does this tell you little girl??? Just could of said hello and you would of gotten a much better response, no worries though I suppose we all must go through the learning stage.

Gingy01 · Jul 20, 2014, 08:34 AM

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Originally Posted by Underground

What is this all about? Are you trying to push to see if I will push back? It's ok if you seek my acknowledgment you don't have to do it in such a negative way though. You see I've been here a little longer than you. I have written many serious posts and I do believe I am respected in this forum. So to come out and try to bash me notice how others have completely bypassed your comment and continued to respond to me.... What does this tell you little girl??? Just could of said hello and you would of gotten a much better response, no worries though I suppose we all must go through the learning stage.

lol oh Jesus....I was just playing around.

Welcome to the Narcissistic forum!!