So I was taking 30mg adderal which I decided to stop about 2 months ago. Didn't seem to help me at all, no more changes. I am trying wellbutrin 300 mg (1 week at 150) now to see if this helps. I also have klonopins which seem to keep my tension at bay when I take a couple. My pdoc recommend that if I feel more normal while taking these then take daily. Today is day 1 of this. Maybe if the tension is gone I won't care much of other things that usually get me going. I will wait and see as well as report. On another note I would like to say that there are some people here who I genuinely appreciate as I feel the ties and similarities in turn making me feel understood. After all is there really anyone who can truly understand our minds other than our own kind?? At the same time when I see others who seem so fake and trying to repeat what they learn of it automatically sets me into an aggressive state. Part of my downfall as I know I shouldn't even pay it any mind. Guess this is why it's called a disorder. I am going to try and ignore the things that bother me and only write what is for me and for others that only make sense to me. No need to try and prove that I am better, worse and all in between to anyone else. Another NPD trait to work on. So consider my posts from here on out either ones that will ignore and not let my aggression come through as words but rather write about my days, past, present and future. So to the ones I've leashed out at go fu?@ yourselves..... Just kidding. Again making myself laugh. Truly will try to ignore what I find so irritating here and write in a positive way(maybe). Anyway it's been fun writing this and maybe the calmness of my klonopins are really helping lol!!!
Love always,
Me

[kaliope]

this is a place to be honest about your feelings. if something is bothering you, feel free to talk about it. I hope the med change helps. take care.

[Atypical_Disaster]

On another note I would like to say that there are some people here who I genuinely appreciate as I feel the ties and similarities in turn making me feel understood. After all is there really anyone who can truly understand our minds other than our own kind??

You're one of those people that I appreciate posting here as it often feels like you're reading my ****ing mind! So thank you for continuing to post. *gives ego strokes*

At the same time when I see others who seem so fake and trying to repeat what they learn of it automatically sets me into an aggressive state.

This kind of **** gets me going too. I've been very irritated by this kind of behavior as of late. When people are fake about it it just perpetuates the misunderstandings of this condition, which are already so rampant thanks to certain people... yes, I'm glaring at you Dr. Sam...

So to the ones I've leashed out at go fu?@ yourselves..... Just kidding. Again making myself laugh.

Lol.

Truly will try to ignore what I find so irritating here and write in a positive way(maybe).

Ignoring it is really the only option. If you keep responding to it, it fuels the fire.

Keep writing and I'll try to get off my lazy *** and start writing more too so hopefully more of the real narcissists will join in!

Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster

You're one of those people that I appreciate posting here as it often feels like you're reading my ****ing mind! So thank you for continuing to post. *gives ego strokes*

Yes I love the strokes!!!! You are one of the few I am speaking of so I stroked you back!!!

Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster

Keep writing and I'll try to get off my lazy *** and start writing more too so hopefully more of the real narcissists will join in!

Yes you have been rather lazy!!!

[Atypical_Disaster]

You are one of the few I am speaking of so I stroked you back!!!

I feel so warm and fuzzy inside now...

Yes you have been rather lazy!!!

I know, I know... I need to get with it! Hahahaha!

Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster

I feel so warm and fuzzy inside now...


I know, I know... I need to get with it! Hahahaha!

I knew you would get that feeling when I wrote this back... Just like a magician!!!!

[Atypical_Disaster]

Hahahaha, Underground I so enjoy your sense of humor. That's hard to come by around here!

I too enjoy my sense of humor!!! Unfortunately not enough people understand it

[Atypical_Disaster]

I know right? People don't understand mine either. Too bad, they're seriously missing out!

Exactly!!!!! Mirror mirror on the wall

[Atypical_Disaster]

We're the fairest ones of all!

and the best

[Atypical_Disaster]

Obviously.

You just cant leave my name as the only one now can you

[Atypical_Disaster]

To do so would be acting against my nature darling.

Ha ha so I wait for you to be gone so I can reign

[Atypical_Disaster]

Originally Posted by Underground

Ha ha so I wait for you to be gone so I can reign

Hahahahahaha, you're cute.

Again underground has arisen to show up everywhere

[Atypical_Disaster]

Hello again.

Hi stranger