[shakespeare47]

I had an appointment with him today. He works out of his house, and he wasn't there.
I think I'm understandably upset.
5 years ago I left because he kept being rude to me.. and made me wait too long for an appointment- he claimed to be running late, at least that's what the message on my cell phone said (5 years ago), but I never called him back, and never returned.

I've thought about the times I was with him 5 years ago. I got the sense he was punishing me because I had been very rude to him in the past. But, he did say some things that made sense to me.. and did help me. I had hoped we could work together again.


We've had 2 appointments this time around. ... and I thought they went well. and he seemed glad to work with me again. But, we never talked about why I stopped seeing him.

Anyway, I left a message on his answering machine. It will be interesting to hear what he says. I was having a pretty good day until I found he wasn't home.

[shakespeare47]

At least I have some homework I need to do. That will help me keep my mind off things for a while.

[Gingy01]

I'm sorry to hear that. But to be honest it sounds incredibly annoying.

Better look like offering a free session.

[Secretum]

I had a t who double-booked me with another patient, more than once. We had to reschedule. It made me really, really mad (like I was screaming at the top of my lungs in rage on the drive home mad).

And I'm not even a narcissist, haha.

[shakespeare47]

^Thanks. I've had those rage moments.... It's been a few years, but I yelled so loud and so long that I was hoarse for a day or 2 afterward, lol.

[shakespeare47]

I finally talked to him on Sunday. After I left his place on Fri., I drove over to my shop to use my phone and left a message for him on his answering machine. Then I left. I went to the shop on Sunday and found he had called back a few minutes after I called him. So, I called him back.

Anyway, he apologized and claimed he had just forgotten to write the appointment down. He doesn't do many Friday (my wife needed me to to something, so I couldn't meet on our regular Thurs. appt) appointments, and somehow forgot ours. It seems like a plausible explanation, but I still wonder if it wasn't a passive-aggressive way for him to get even with me for some of the nasty things I've said to him. He also is making sure we have firm boundaries. He's definitely in charge.... He's made that clear. He did offer to meet me that weekend for a makeup appt.... Unfortunately, I had a big homework assignment to complete.

I did get to talk to him on the phone about why I stopped seeing him 5 years ago. I told him that the last time we were supposed to meet, I waited for ten minutes after our appointment was supposed to start, and then left... and that it was just the last straw. I saw a pattern of comments and passive-aggressive behavior, like him showing up late. I told him I thought I understood why, and that I thought it was because he was getting even for the nasty things I had said to him. He denied being affected.... but, then conceded that he might have remembered a time or 2.... but, he thought it was just part of my therapy. I got the sense that he acknowledged that I can be a jerk, but that it wasn't that big of a deal, and that he knew how to handle me. LOL.

Anyway, he suggested we needed to talk more about it. I'm looking forward to Thursday (our usual day for therapy.)

[shakespeare47]

He also explained that the reason he was late 5 years ago, was because he was coming back from Chicago, and got caught in traffic.