[leomama]

Hi everyone, since this forum is for people who have NPD or NPD traits, I figured I would create a place for us to check in.

One of the things I've been thinking about is narcissistic injury. I posted about it on a separate thread in terms of my father, however now I'm thinking about it in terms of myself.

I believe what the controversial figure Sam Vankin says, that NPD is a severe form of PTSD. I also believe what Pete Walker says, that the fight mechanism of C-PTSD (my dx 10 years ago) is a narcissistic defense.

I've been asking myself lately, why do I get so offended when people put me down. Why can't I just let it roll off my back?

Well, first of all I think getting offended is a proper response because without that feeling of defense, you will get abused. That's probably my hyper vigilance talking.

Its interesting, I've been reading this book called psychopath free and it talks about how dating or being around a psychopath could make you hyper vigilant. I'm thinking, I'm already there, so now what? To be honest, I think hyper vigilance actually protects you against psychopaths. Recently I learned psychopaths prey upon narcissists, which is really profound to me. I guess psychopaths are at the top of the food chain.

Just my random, or not so random thoughts, for the moment, on these issues. I will probably post about that book later too.

[Atypical_Disaster]

There's always a vulnerability or a handful of them that everyone possesses, that will always uniquely wound them when the vulnerability gets struck at all. I've never known what to call it though I would suppose these vulnerabilities do tend to fall into the narcissistic injury realm.

I have a huge ego, but it's decidedly not fragile. People have tried to bruise my ego and one person tried to outright shatter it. That woman failed, miserably.

Narcissists are actually very easy to topple once you know how they work.

[leomama]

Interesting. I guess I need to heal my wounds then, which means I need to find out what they are first. I think this is again, childhood stuff. Oh joy.

[Atypical_Disaster]

I've noticed that people with NPD traits and those with BPD traits as well both seem to be extremely sensitive to these kinds of vulnerabilities, they just tend to have different expressions of that sensitivity.

[leomama]

Yes that is a very interesting point. Today I was being attacked by somebody and didn't even know it until another person told me to ignore what that person was saying. I'm still thinking about that.

[Atypical_Disaster]

That's interesting that you didn't notice it. I wonder why that is?

[leomama]

The other two were my friends, and older, and male, but so was the person who actually came over and intervened. Turns out he was a vet with BPD, kindred spirit. The other two? Totally against medication , therapy, psych doctors. They kind of reminded me of my dad. It sure was intense.

Hello all, Underground checking in!!!
I dabble in the realm of NPD. Or so I have been told on occasion. I am a constant work in progress. Mostly waking up feeling who I am is normal. Reflections are what cause concern....... Maybe!! HA HA. To the ones here like me I welcome you on this journey. The journey of false, true, false, true self and so on. Who REALLY knows what is what?? Like I said before, just checking in. (documented)

Originally Posted by Underground

Hello all, Underground checking in!!!
I dabble in the realm of NPD. Or so I have been told on occasion. I am a constant work in progress. Mostly waking up feeling who I am is normal. Reflections are what cause concern....... Maybe!! HA HA. To the ones here like me I welcome you on this journey. The journey of false, true, false, true self and so on. Who REALLY knows what is what?? Like I said before, just checking in. (documented)

If I could thank myself below I would.

[leomama]

I can't relate but that's ok as NPD was not my dx, PD nos was.

[leomama]

Are you being for real? Who told you you have NPD?

Originally Posted by leomama

Are you being for real? Who told you you have NPD?

Am I being for real? Obviously you are new here, I have been here for some time now and if you have read anything I have written this would not be the question. What is your concern who told me what? Is this why we are here? Tread lightly my friend!! HA HA HA that was the old me, the new me say's a doctor told me so. So now what??

[Atypical_Disaster]

Originally Posted by Underground

Hello all, Underground checking in!!!
I dabble in the realm of NPD. Or so I have been told on occasion. I am a constant work in progress. Mostly waking up feeling who I am is normal. Reflections are what cause concern....... Maybe!! HA HA. To the ones here like me I welcome you on this journey. The journey of false, true, false, true self and so on. Who REALLY knows what is what?? Like I said before, just checking in. (documented)

Do you have any idea what's true about yourself and what's false? I'm asking because I'm currently engaged in that particular struggle pfft.

[leomama]

If you have NPD traits others tell you.

Funny that you ask. I find myself questioning the exact same thing from time to time. Sorta like my reflection comment earlier. Is these things I believe to be true really what they were or did I create this in my funny little mind because only I believe this to be true. The whole thing is so nutty.

Originally Posted by leomama

If you have NPD traits others tell you.

Oh yeah, so then I wasted all this time in my life figuring out why what is is just that. I should of found you earlier in life. I would of been so much better of. Thank you so much for your knowledge, it truly is the most powerful thing I have ever came across in my life!!!

[leomama]

I didn't mean me tell you. I meant others in your life .

Oh Atypical, I feel it starting again...... Some will be wondering what this means while others who HAVE been around will understand so clearly!!!

[Atypical_Disaster]

Originally Posted by Underground

Funny that you ask. I find myself questioning the exact same thing from time to time. Sorta like my reflection comment earlier. Is these things I believe to be true really what they were or did I create this in my funny little mind because only I believe this to be true. The whole thing is so nutty.

Personally I can start to discern truth from lies when circumstance forces my mask to drop for some reason.

Lies vanish quickly once exposed. The truth remains and it stays consistent. Lies can come back to haunt you, but they will always be ever changing and so on.

Though, if you have to ask if something is really true... I would suspect it right then and there.