I think I should start looking at myself first

Sorry for the unnecessary post before I found this thread.
So where to start.. so the more I read about narcissism the more I identify with it. I allways ruled it out because of "what kind of monster wouldn't care about their partners feelings".. but because I read so much, I was getting worried about the fact, that almost everything fitted all the time up to one or two points.... and then it hit me, that actually that's exactly what I do. I cheated, I lied about it..... actually I lie all the time, I mean I really try to minimise it I've been working to better myself but now I start to think that I just have become more dangerous because of it....
But in essence, nothing changed, I still decide for MYSELF, where the line is. I still lie, create a reality that fits me, it just became easier because now I don't have so many potential errors in it.
I dont know if this is... a good point to start this but I have no idea what to do so yeah. Whatever comes of this, I just have to try

I hear you @whatismyfault sometimes we make mistakes in relationships and get stuck in patterns of the past. It happens to me too but I am trying to be a better partner.

Have you considered getting a therapist or support group to help you work things out?

CANDC

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