[Nabil]

After 5 months of battling with ma own thoughts and so called depression,ive finally figured out my problem!

O-C-D-
It all made sense to me now!

When i was a kid,picture of a pig would keep poppin in ma mind even though i didnt want it cuz someone told me even thinking about pig is a sing.so i was like noooooooo and i started crying when it wouldnt go away.I asked my mom,she was like lol but then later ok ill ask my father.
So my grandfather was like,ok why do u think pig was even created by God?thats it!thinking is not a sing.I developed my own meachanism " when i dont even want such thoughts to come,why should they bother me? "
And i was happpyyy!!!as a penguin LOL

But then 7/8 yrs later,I got really depressed cuz i was bullied at school and i was studying for an exam one day,when i realized i wasnt able to control my negative thoughts related to depression.
This lasted another 3 yrs.I mean,not everyday it happened.But i never really controlled it until just recently,I linked this thing to my ' pig episode .
Because,whenever im beginning to study or enjoy anything,this depressive episode popped up in my head.Finally i realized this is OCD!

It was difficult to control cuz I was depressed also.I read somewhere OCD can be a side effect of depression.
Now I know this is just a thought thats not lettin me study.
But still at times,im afraid of this thought.Like it can hamper or become overwhelming anytime.

Any advice ?

thanks.

[Aunt Donna]

Have you officially been diagnosed with OCD? Doesn't sound like OCD to me. Do you have obsessive thoughts or compulsions? I understand the part that some people still avoid pigs. I have a friend who does. She was brought up that pork was a sin along with certain other animals.

I am sorry you started suffering from depression at such an early year. There is a test link here on PC to see if you OCD. I have found these tests helpful when talking to my doctor. The test score will help you to see where you are at. Just click on Quizzes at the top of the page and it will take you there.

[Pup]

It sounds more like depression or another anxiety disorder.

OCD usually is characterized by obsessions and compulsions, and there are different types, one being Pure O, where only the obsessions are present. But it is quite common too. As is the mixed of both obsessions and compulsions.

If you are worried you do have OCD, ask to be assessed. But it doesn't sound too much like OCD to me. But I'm not a professional, just a gal who knows a lot about it and has had it for many years lol. Obviously we can't diagnose you here but a doctor can make that assessment and find out what it was/is.

[Nabil]

You guys are right.Its not so much like OCD but I wish there were professionals here who can help me figure out my problem once and for all.All I know is that there is a problem.I have never been this confused in my whole life.Now my faith about it being OCD has begun to detoriate.I think I get panick attacks suddenly like for e.g When Im sure that I have got hold of this thing and stuff,suddenly,its hits me that,wat was the solution?And it is again lost and Im back to my past,from where it started it all and solving but thank God,it isnt happening so frequently.But guys,this is not normal ,right.I want my old-self to be back.Right now I feel like,there are 2 parts of my thoughts,one that is the problem that doesnt seem to go away permanently and its been like 4 yrs!!I just want to think normally and not to be afraid of my own thoughts.How can I do that.

And my ystudy problem,I dont know what this cursed problem is!!Whenver I look at my book,though i can study,but not fully like i used to,cuz I get the same 3yr old image stuck in my head!!When i was depressed,I couldnt concentrate.But now there are no more bullies,no more making fun of,but i dunno its still there!X((( Atleast i just want to fully concentrate on my studies....................

[Aunt Donna]

Nabil, don't get so discouraged. Seriously, try taking the quizzes in the quiz section of PsychCentral. I have found them quite helpful. It will give you a starting place. I have discovered a lot about myself by taking them. Start by taking the depression, anxiety, and attention deficit disorder quizzes and go from there. It helps you find that needed starting point of getting yourself together. Plus remember we are all here for you. Take care of yourself.