Feeling crushed by OCD thoughts, guilt and fear.

Hi,

Okay, my first post.

I signed up for this forum because I'm feeling completely overwhelmed by my OCD thoughts, but I also have a number of mental health issues that I'm facing. These include GAD, panic attacks and skin picking (which is probably part of the OCD, I guess). I'm on Effexor 150mg, but I'm not seeing a mental health professional regularly at the moment. Hoping to contact someone first thing Monday to be seen soon.

I do a lot of writing as part of my job, and I have a strange irrational worry that I'm going to inadvertently type in an inappropriate word or phrase into a document. I have never actually done anything of the sort. However, my fear has gotten so bad that I word search everything I write electronically now (documents, emails, etc.) for words that my brain has decided could possibly be there. I also scan everything I write by hand multiple times to make sure nothing bad is written, even though I know that there is nothing.

It's exhausting, and obviously takes me longer to complete my work. In addition, even though I double-check everything, I still have anxiety that somehow I "missed" something. I actually have a lot of these anxiety/fear/guilt related issues, but I figured I'd talk about this one first.

Anyone experience anything like this?

Hello bluedude, it's nice to meet you, welcome to psych central.
I often have to check and recheck anything I write to make sure there are no mistakes and I still have anxiety over it. My therapist who also has OCD says that this problem really interferes with her work in writing reports.
Good for you for seeking help, I hope you find something that helps.