Help

Hi!
Well I'm going to give you a rundown of my "deal"..

I think i have OCD. I started realizing symptoms about a half-a-year ago, (after researching i've had some for a while) or longer and did some research at that time, and realized it was OCD that was the problem. I looked at a lot of symptoms and realized i fall in the category of a lot of them.. here are some:

• Placing things in a certain area, example, putting my money in a certain order.
• Re-checking things to make sure its the right way kinda same as ^.
• making sure people heard what I said. Or i repeat saying, " did you see that" or, "ya know?" or "did you hear me?!!?"
• I always touch things, this is the big one. Like on the mouse pad of my keyboard and the sides of my laptop, I always swipe my hands across it for some reason. Same with my keyboard.. I've broken two keys from doing it..

also I'm obsessed with order and symmetry. They may have superstitions about certain numbers, colors, or arrangements.
I also get mad at random things. like the other day i saw a toy car in the water in the river, i got really mad knowing that, i don't know but yeah. I'm starting to like, blink at things to "clean" them in my mind or something, its weird i cant explain it. then i used to blow it up in my mind, now i try to erase it with my finger in the air and in my mind... =S

I've hidden this from my family for that half a year or so, and wanted to make this post. I'm too afraid to tell anyone.. I'm too embarrassed. I might email this to my mom cause I'm more comfortable doing that.. maybe after i get some replies.

Thanks everyone