[Keightii]

I only came across this youtube channel today, but already I've watched the ajority of the videos. Beckie, whose channel it is, talks about trich in various forms, and I just can't explain how amazing and inspriational they are. I don't have trich although I do have OCD, but I can relate to exactly what she is saying and I can absolutely relate to the cross overs between the two illnesses. The way that she describes it is purely incredible. I just can't explain how amazing it is, you have to take a look, whether affected by trich or not; even from a purely artistical view point her videos are breath taking. Not all of her videos focus directly on trich, however it is a theme that runa through the majority of her videos. Just scroll down the list and watch all with trich in the title. It really is incredible.

Watch here:

YouTube - ‪beckie0's Channel‬‏

Sorry if this has been posted on here before, but please take a look, you won't regret it.

[Keightii]

http://www.youtube.com/beckie0#p/u/76/y_aDkB6yJNY
http://www.youtube.com/beckie0#p/u/69/CiBIXMBEqgE
http://www.youtube.com/beckie0#p/u/50/Ymm7YnMcfs4
http://www.youtube.com/beckie0#p/u/27/p_ci-keXmn4
http://www.youtube.com/beckie0#p/u/19/rWmhmbbvLxs
http://www.youtube.com/beckie0#p/u/8/v6UROmu1ujA

These are the six videos that directly relate to the theme of trich.

[timrousbeastie]

Thanks for sharing the links - beautifully-made videos by a lovely and talented girl. Having said that, as a hair-puller myself I had very mixed feelings watching. In the first couple I watched, Beckie is so casual in the way she talks about trich, so openly - even showing off her bald patches. Not many pullers I know would ever do that, it feels such a shameful thing. I know rationally that it's not my fault, not something to feel ashamed off but still I struggle to mention trich to anyone but my very nearest and dearest. So I don't know what message Beckie gives out - is this an honesty we should all aspire to, or is she masking the horrible pain and shame of this disorder?

Then I watched more, and realised that this is just as hard for Beckie to talk about as it is for any of us. The one on "unhelpful things" people say about trich" is so, so true . . .

[Lola00]

I haven't done much research on this but I believe I have a mild form of it--I pluck hair as a ritual at night to relax I guess, I always have but I am far to vain to do it anywhere you can see it--I used to think it was just that--vanity--my eyebrows could not be out of place, I could not have a stray facial hair, but the older I get I realize I get antsy if I can't do it, because I physically like the way it feels--I am an incest survivor, but feel very well adjusted, I have no self loathing about it. Yet I have also had bouts of cutting, and very mild OCD behavior. But overall I feel good about myself, am I in denial, should I explore this more?

[timrousbeastie]

Hi Lola,

I think my advice would be not to read too much about trich. It does sound as though you have it and it sounds as though you can relate it to your episodes of cutting and OCD. At one level they are all strategies for coping with stress and anxiety (which we all experience). I've had trich so long, and it has made a really big impact on my life so I am fully aware that it can be much more complex than that.

But in some ways I wish I had never read all the other accounts of other people's struggles with trich because it has made me focus on it far, far too much and I believe that has made it worse, not better.

If it is not a major problem for you then maybe try and let it be, something that may come and go but doesn't have to become a major preoccupation.

Concentrate on the things you can do to take care of yourself rather than dwelling on the negative, is my current approach. Good luck.

Originally Posted by Lola00

I haven't done much research on this but I believe I have a mild form of it--I pluck hair as a ritual at night to relax I guess, I always have but I am far to vain to do it anywhere you can see it--I used to think it was just that--vanity--my eyebrows could not be out of place, I could not have a stray facial hair, but the older I get I realize I get antsy if I can't do it, because I physically like the way it feels--I am an incest survivor, but feel very well adjusted, I have no self loathing about it. Yet I have also had bouts of cutting, and very mild OCD behavior. But overall I feel good about myself, am I in denial, should I explore this more?

[Lola00]

Thanks, that makes sense. I've been doing it since I was about 10 and I'm in my mid thirties, it doesn't really control me, or run my day or anything. I tend to jump from obsession to obsession but they are never truly severe. Yet since I have never seen a therapist, I don't have a good gauge of what's acceptable or "normal".