[Lik3]

I feel alone. I have thoughts about being bullied and picked on. I have even been in denial that I was being bullied. The last time I had thoughts were about infidelity committed by other women who are or were married. I have thoughts about extreme infidelity. I even look for extreme things. But this time, I don't have any compulsions due to the bullying thoughts. I feel so frustrated that they won't go away and they have been harder to deal with. Has anyone else had any thoughts about feeling alone due to bullying thoughts? I am a Christian and I feel like such a weak and ineffective person and it is like my past is catching up with me. I have had feelings of guilt because I didn't stand up for myself and now I am afraid of what others think. Am I alone in this?

[Junerain]

I also was bullied my entire life, I also look for extreme things, and also am a Christian. I am slowly learning to stnd up for myself and be more assertive; even as Christians we must...God does not create us to be doormats to selfish people, it is good to be selfless and thoughtful, but only to a point. We need to grow and confront and learn from our experiences.

I'm sorry you were bullied...it's completely unfair, completely pointless and it really points to the evil in the other person, the selfishness of the other person.

I used to think of extreme things, until....I actually had extreme things...working seven hours a week for a family run restaurant where the family was abusive....nannying to an abusive family...being in abusive relationships..

Well, I have lived and learned. ready for some peace in my life, and ready to be treated right in my relationship, even if that means he isn't always available, I have more time to myself now, but I spend it here in PC helping others, and expressing myself, reading, going to church, and working with sweet children, all healthy things for ME- I MATTER..

I hope you can continue to write more and be a part of our PC community, private message me anytime

How does the rest of your life look, at this point? What kinds of problems are your thoughts, and extreme things, running into for you?

I want to help. I care. Please write more