Mind OCD

I don't know if anyone else does this, but I like to 'label' my OCD. i.e. phone OCD, cigarette OCD, car OCD, etc.

I've had OCD for as long as I can remember, but recently my 'mind' OCD is becoming even worse.

This is extremely hard to explain, so I will do my best.

Imagine a thin line of air, about, 6 inches long. (Yeah, I sound crazy already) Okay, now you can see the air, only with your mind, but it's maybe the color of smoke, except lighter. Alright, now if you were to look at a corner on the ceiling and just imagine the air, which has sharp ends, going straight through the corner doing like a safety pin thing, except in a half circle form, and coming back out several inches away from the corner and back into the room.

Yeah, I'm crazy. Anyway.

That's what I basically deal with. I don't know how or why this started. Sometimes it's not even the air thing, just an invisible line that I KNOW is there in my mind. And it's not only with corners. It's with EVERYTHING. The arm of the couch, my desk, a TV, a frickin light bulb. Everything.

The thing is, the 'line' or 'air, has to go directly in the middle, and if it doesn't, which it usually doesn't on the first try, my mind does this thing where it goes crazy and continues to, I guess, 'imagine' it happening until it actually does. And sometimes it takes 10-20 times to actually get in the middle. And sometimes it doesn't even have to start at a corner, but has to go through something, then come out of a little opening.

Now, the thing that's even crazier, is that I can feel the pressure when it goes through. It's very soft, but I can feel it in my mind.

To give an example on how much this bothers me, I went to see X-Men a while ago, and the whole 'mind' thing they do with their powers somehow triggered my 'mind' OCD. I sat through the whole movie trying to get the 'line' or 'air' through anything. I would even make places up in my mind so it could go through so it would go away, but it never did. I ended up crying five times during the whole movie because I couldn't handle it.

I have no idea what to do. Whenever this happens I get easily distracted. I can't pay attention in class, it's hard to concentrate on homework, and I can't even watch TV without it happening. It's everywhere, and I have absolutely no idea how to make it stop.

Very descriptive. Maybe you need glasses? Just a thought.

THIS IS THE BEST DESCRIPTION EVER.

Sorry for the capslock attack. But I get a mental "line" too... Only it connects things. Like when I'm in the car, the line curves over each car & I get upset if it doesn't touch back down in the exact middle between two cars. Or sometimes I start to connect it between trees, street signs, or zigzagging it between the directions on the roads perpendicular to me.

FINALLY. Someone knows at least something similar to what I deal with. Well, not as much as I used to thankfully... It's lessened significantly in the past year. Hopefully yours goes away soon!

I don't think it's an eye problem, because it doesn't happen at every second of the day, although it does happen a LOT.

And ah finally someone who understands! I feel like a lunatic trying to explain this to people because it's very difficult and they're just like 'I think there's something wrong with you'. Well obviously. I'm glad yours has lessened! I sure hope mine does, too.

Mine seems to have gone away due to two factors in specific: Aging out of the intensity & moving to a much calmer environment. While my mental health has gotten a little worse in other areas as I've gotten older, my OCD has gotten better. I've had it since I was around 10 (evidently YOUNGER, due to my recent topic posted here) & I hear that OCD that starts young usually decreases with age. I hope yours *does* go away. Or at least get a little better! Because getting to the point of crying over silly ideas is just... Aggravating!! :P

Well I hope the other things you are dealing with diminish. If only time could make everything better, right? And yeah I heard that too. I'm hoping it goes away soon. What is weird is most of the actual compulsions have actually lessened. There are still quite a few, but they're not as severe as they were about a year ago. And yeah it is definitely aggravating! But I'm trying the best I can to deal with it.

Hahah I don't think psychosis is age dependent! But yeah, unfortunately time doesn't fix everything... I didn't have many compulsions at all. I have trich, but it's gotten better too. The only obsessions that will NOT lessen or go away have to do with numbers... I'm really superstitious about certain numbers. Lol

Good luck hun. Truly. : )

My apologies to Forgivexforget.

Dear forgivexforget... Your post touched my heart, especially when you reached the part of crying in the movies I really feel you, 'cause I've got pure obsessions too, but not this line thing, instead I've got other images #~#

Like when somebody does something that my OCD presumes to be bad, I keep on repeating his act towards me in my mind several times, & trying very hard to imagine how much his/her act is intended to hurt me & make me feel bad, until it actually feels bad!!! & I keep repeating this every couple of hours, for days & weeks, & maybe even months on & that's just one thing that happens with my PO :$

I remember back in the years I had even worse PO, that it made me have fits of screams & cries. But after several months, it lessened to many degrees. I guess it did, 'cause I began engaging in political activity in the streets with demonstrations & campaigning & all that stuff It distracted me a lot from my personal obsessions (not totally, but to a big degree), & made me more engaged in the bigger problems of the society & the whole country Why don't you try that out?!!

Hey,
I'm wondering how you're doing right now. I have the EXACT same OCD and it is very annoying. Did yours subside? What kinds of techniques did you use to deal with it?