[IchbinkeinTeufel]

The OCD Check-In Thread

I noticed someone was looking for something like this, so thought I'd start one up, for them, possibly myself, and anyone else!

This is a rolling thread, for people to check in, daily, minutely, hourly, or whatever you feel comfortable with.

Tell us your struggles, tells us your victories, share your worries, share you defeats, whatever it is, here's the place to type it.

[Otulissa]

Im suffering from solipsism ocd, what if nothing is real. I cant find too many people that have overcome this, so im rather down and feeling like I wont be able to. I 'know' its silly, but the ocd doubt wont stop.

[ocdwifeofsociopath]

I'm suffering from I'm a nut! lol no seriously...that's the first thing I want to say about myself. But right now i'm ok.

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

Bad OCD moment, after watching a few disturbing films. I thought I was doing well enough to be able to watch them, and also, I can't see into the future, so I can't always know what next bit is going to be f***ed-up. >.<

[ocdwifeofsociopath]

I don't get how people can't feel this way! It seems perfectly natural to me...oh duh...it is...for me. But still!

I'm kind of not ok.
Stuff is getting pretty bad at times. I kind of flipped out last night and feel really extremely stupid and embarrassed. Sometimes I just can't function because i have no effective reality test if it gets bad enough.

Feeling very frustrated and beat down.

[Phobicperson]

Didn't get much sleep tonight cause felt like something was going to jump out at me and had to keep checking

[Grey Matter]

Bad compulsion day. I must have acted on most of them at least ten times and it kept me stuck in the house. ugh.

On vacation:

- Sunburned on shoulders from walking out in the sun which was directly on top of me.
- Walking to the truck and leaving the house with a bag on my shoulder which hurts like hell.
- "You forgot to turn of the two lights" says the people in my head.
- Walks back and turns them off. (because they were so on weren't they.. WEREN'T THEY..)
- Walking back to the car again..
- "what about the tap and what if you left valuable stuff (which is my iphone that i have in my bag i know it because i put the bag down and checked) in the drawers" (even though i opened and closed the drawers like 10 times) says the people in my head.
- walks back to the car in over 90 degree heat and 95% humidity while pretending to worship the people in my head because if i don't then they will make it worse.

[spondiferous]

The last couple of days have been brutal. I've been more or less incapacitated. I am hoping to get out of the house today without freaking out and feeling like I need to be hospitalized. I have to go to an orientation for the mental health department at the local hospital at 1:30 and I am contemplating going by myself.

[Grey Matter]

Heard every single one of my trigger words today in some kind of messed up quick succession, needed to preform compulsions for each one. IT'S SO EXHAUSTING.

[ocdwifeofsociopath]

Really bad right now . My husband is frustrated with my social inabilities and days everyone thinks I'm a bitvh. He says it's no wonder no one wants to do anything with me and I have no friends. Really hating myself right now. He'd call it a pity party

[Phobicperson]

The anxiety you get when your sweaty oily towel-using mother uses your computer!!! Seeing her typing and adjusting and scrolling... Dhwfndgnxfjetjrfhwnj there is no emoji for that. Thank god for the wet wipes I have in my room. My skin's a mess now... At least my computer's clean Sucks to be me though

Afraid of myself because myself is afraid of anything/anyone that can get close enough to notice things aren't super great with unicorns and pixie dust. I'm creating more space between me and other people because I'm pretty awful to deal with.
But in typical incoherent, jarring, anxiety induced fashion- instead of just creating space I may have just kicked someone off the island... The person who, just lately, often helped me challenge that "awful to deal with" notion. Somehow he'd manage to give this ridiculous metaphorical island, while we are at it, any color worth noting.

Ick. Just so much ick.

[Grey Matter]

My rituals and compulsions have been getting worse. Recently it is intrusive thoughts that I can't seem to get a grip on. But I am trying.

[MercilessShadow]

My skin scratching is horrible these days... as well as the intrusive thoughts

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

Seems OK, today, and yesterday wasn't too bad, either. In a weird sort-of way, even though it didn't really go that well, I think that first session with my new psychologist, has helped.

[Grey Matter]

Bad day in general. Worse day for my OCD.

[ocdwifeofsociopath]

Headache and pms. Horrible for paranioa, anxiety, and intrusive thoughts

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

My OCD is currently, mostly under control, I think, or at least the intrusive thoughts are. Me and my dad seem fairly sure that the therapy is already somehow helping. Unfortunately, while the intrusive thoughts may have lessened or be more controlled, I seem to be doing slightly more compulsions, such as recently I've been doing things 3 times. ¬_¬ It's frustrating, but manageable. The anxiety all still there, thought; doubt I'll escape that, anytime soon.

[Grey Matter]

I have been having a really hard time with my OCD, it's been really severe which is why I haven't been posting in this part of the forum as much. It's really discouraging.

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

Yeah, I know what you mean - sometimes, talking/thinking about it is counter-productive, regardless of intention.

[atomicc]

My intrusive thoughts are freaking out my boyfriend because today I accidentally said out loud I wanted to put my finger in his eye...

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

Oh wow, that would've freaked me out a bit, too, but eyes creep me out, as does anything coming into contact with them, my finger included! xD I'm sure he understands that you won't actually play pokeypokey with his eyes. xD

[IntricateSunlight]

I've been really really really really bad lately, like I have barely been able to get my college assignments done the past few weeks. I can barely get anything done...and that makes me feel even worse. I feel like I am going completely bats**t crazy....I've actually missed a few assignments because I completely lose track of time for hours at a time.