[brokensoul1984]

We are starting to search doctor. I just need to know for sure I'm not dangerous and that I won't hurt my loved....I feel ashamed and devastated but I need help. It's hard to find good Psychiatrist in Ukraine but my mom agreed to help. Can't tell my husband I'm afraid he'll ask for divorce... hope I'm not mad, not a killer maniac...

[Maven]

The fact that it bothers you to think of doing something like that suggests you are most likely safe and harmless. It's normal for people with anxiety and/or obsessions to have thoughts they're going to hurt someone, and it's also normal to feel upset that you have those thoughts. Picture yourself actually doing it. I bet you'd feel horrible to imagine really doing it, how you'd feel harming someone, and thinking about going to jail and all the consequences. Don't worry yourself overmuch; you know you have no desire to really do those things, right? It's just thoughts, not urges. You should try not to worry about those thoughts. I know it's not easy, but the more thought you give that kind of thinking, the more anxious you'll be. And it doesn't have to be that way.

[brokensoul1984]

thanks a lot, I find those thoughts really terrible, so I guess I'm not that mad at last

[HelpMe2013]

Stay strong