[cureforeverthing]

Hi everyone,
I am 21 years of age writing today seeking some cognitive therapy advice/guidance to simulate a certain area in the brain for what I believe is a very curable disorder. 4-5 Month ago I finally realized there is something major missing with my cognitive processes. I’ve never had a conversation with parents or friends in regards this. Over the past few months I’ve been collecting data of the disorder. Here are my facts and strong beliefs.

The disorder: I believe I have some symptoms of the Impulse Control Disorder. I have some symptoms and related symptoms: Onychophagia (Nail biting), minimal Dermatophagia (skin biting), and hair fiddling (related to Trichotillomania, hair pulling) and a bit of sexual compulsion. After further research I discovered this disorder occurs because of lack of activity of the prefrontal cortex which confirms my theory of what I have been feeling.
What is not functioning: e n.wikipedia.org/wiki/Executive_functions

Personal Experiences of the stimulation/unsustainable initiation of the executive system.
Conversations
- When listening to people have a conversation regarding knowledgeable, logical, deep concepts I can feel intensive stimulation within areas between my ears and eyes, this travels upwards stimulate my prefrontal cortex slightly moderately. This lasts 5-10 Minutes after the conversation is finished.
- I am able to follow the conversation and process it very deeply into my head when the areas are stimulated.
- The conversation must start as a subject or idea such as “why are pedestrians hit by vehicles so often in the area” or new idea. When concepts and explained and exchanged this stimulates deep and I feel my brain start to flow the way it should. The feeling and stimulation feels so incredibly amazing in the brain I want to just keep it going. I’ve just started to notice this from the past 4 months and haven’t told anyone of it. Unfortunately the conversations don’t last too long so I am unable to penetrate long and deep enough to “fully activate” the executive system.

Meditation:
- After meditation for 20-40 mins with great focus of breathing, body awareness, clear mind with music like this y outube.com/results?search_query=mbyl+6.5+hz I am able to stimulate the areas on the left of the ears and very partially activate the executive system o control my impulses and have greater conscious awareness thoughts. Again this last about 5 minutes after I finish mediation because I cannot simulate deep enough.

My beliefs:
- This can be fixed. If I can stimulate and understand deep conversation the areas are there and are processing – just not fully activated.
- It must be activated though the ears and very deep.
- The serotonin levels in my brain are good enough and I don’t require SSRI’S .
- I can always understand something to matter how complex it but it must be explained very slowly.

Cognitive therapy that would help stimulate/activate.
- Resources of slow conversation with people using most of their brain processes.
- I am unsure of any known helpful stimulates for the executive system or any other people experiencing the same as I have.
- Any guidance is appreciated.

I’ve managed to get though life and attained a diploma in IT. Life is a daily struggle, and can never make proper eye contact and frustrate a lot of people (they talk too fast) which leads me to choose anti-social behavior sometimes. I am not a suicidal person at all and realize beauty in life, but it is deep in my heart to activate my executive system to live with less anxiety and to actually fit in socially. If anyone has had this experience this or can provide guidance please contact me via pirate message.

Thank you

[jelly-bean]

I hope that there are others here who can relate and help you with this.