I have a sort of strange fascination with Asian culture, not to mention I find many of the men very attractive. I'm the type of person who likes to try new things, foods, etc. but have been fixated on Asian (Korean) culture since like 2008. About last year, my family and I vacationed to San Francisco where we were supposed try some food at a Korean restaurant and I felt so nervous about going, I skipped out on it and now I'm having strong regrets over it. Like what is wrong with me? My family doesn't know about this "obsession" and I'm not sure if I have obsessive compulsive disorder or what. But it makes me feel like I'm skipping out on opportunities.
There's also a South Korean guy who is an IT person at my school and I get nervous around him, it's so weird and embarrassing.