[Jsmx3989]

I really need help guys I have been suffering with anxiety and ocd for awhile now every week right now I'm really battling hocd questioningy sexuality it's killing me Abd making me sick to my stomach even thinking I'm gay I've only dated women And have had sex with over 20 and of course during this ocd issue I remembered back to when I was 8-9 yrs old me and a friend showed each other our parts and touched them I didn't know anything about being gay or that it was wrong and at that age I've read a lot of kids have had same thjng happen idk why I can't get this out of my head when I know I'm straight and complete disqust me thinking of being gay I have no hate towards gay but it's just not me And now it's affecting my relationship ... I have issues every week a month ago I walked by my dog with a steak knife to eat dinner then thought what if I stabbed him Nd it killed me for weeks I just want the old me back it's honestly killing me I'm taking Xanax and drinking a lot to help get through nights please help I'm not gay and I'm not a bad person

[CANDC]

So for the delay in responding to your post was overlooked. Sorry to hear you are in distress.

you said

I'm taking Xanax and drinking a lot to help get through nights

according to the articles I read combining alcohol with Xanax is strongly not recommeded. Please see your psychiatrist to have your medicine adjusted.

Self medicating and mixing alcohol with prescription medicines is not a recipe for a balanced sense of well-being.