does anyone here only really get relief from med?

Ive had terrible ocd most of my life and recently the only thing that "somewhat" helps is the med.. Not without some side effects- physical and mental I suppose. This kinda makes me feel helpless like thats all that works- and it just Lessens it to a degree, Not like great results. My anxiety never responded much therapy, depression as well to an extent. oh well.

as much as i was totally agains the idea of medication and hated meds and to this day dont want to take meds, i know i wouldnt be alive without them and my life is 90% better with them so i somewhat resentfully take them every day.

Can I ask which med helped you?

80mg Prozac helped so much. But I can't get off it. I stopped it for three months for some reason. It's like a debate where my mind in psychotic like OCD is fighting with the me (on meds). I don't remember much but it was horrible. It was just a blur but what I remember was being extremely anxious (Worse than when I started) that consisted of about 50-100 hypomanic episodes with about 20 manic episodes (Those ones got the big 12mg risperidone dose to knock me out) but I would get manic again a few days later. So I started taking 80mg again for three days until I got a panic attack that landed me in the hospital. After that I started taking 40mg a day and my anxiety went away in a few days.

I'm kinda scared yknow.. Lol..