[r731]

Hey,

I wanted to know if anyone felt relieved through nature and art, e.g. music. Here I present what personally helps me, but it may belong to a dark solitary nature. I want to know if melancholy has helped anyone else.

Here is a quotation that expresses how "trivial" human beings are in regard to nature:

Once upon a time, in some out of the way corner of that universe which is dispersed into numberless twinkling solar systems, there was a star upon which clever beasts invented knowing. That was the most arrogant and mendacious minute of "world history," but nevertheless, it was only a minute. After nature had drawn a few breaths, the star cooled and congealed, and the clever beasts had to die. One might invent such a fable, and yet he still would not have adequately illustrated how miserable, how shadowy and transient, how aimless and arbitrary the human intellect looks within nature. There were eternities during which it did not exist. And when it is all over with the human intellect, nothing will have happened.

It relieves my anxiety to contemplate about how unimportant and "transient" human affairs and troubles are in regard to nature (or the universe). Physics documentaries did also help me in the past, for I saw how little we were, how astronomical bodies took their courses in the vast space, the void surrounding Earth...

I find it helpful when I (try to) accept doubt and more importantly my insufficient condition, i.e. when I want more in order to get relieved of anxiety. Music sometimes helps me in this:

y2u.be/E0uDFAvXSyE (Zagrli Karaoke)
y2u.be/-SBmJvwiDns (Dance in the dark)

You see, it is melancholy.

You may not like what I enjoy; what I'm posting may also seem somewhat dark and of a solitary nature; but I wanted to share something.

Thank you.

[CANDC]

Humility is a sobering experience. When I was going through depression I put my own self interests in perspective with pictures of the universe.
HubbleSite - Picture Album

But I also celebrate life and joy and light. A universe of darkness is not worthy of all this coloring of the world.

[r731]

Hi,

I'm not depressed (I'm actually diagnosed with schizophrenia).

As for the colourful part, I feel that there is a wall blocking my way: I'm unable to feel the light.
Why can't I? Because of brooding/OCD I believe.

I'm stuck in a state where there is no genuine happiness or sadness. I'm feeling like I'm "outside of all perspectives."

So, the way I've found to briefly get out of this state is to celebrate the chaos, the darkness, the confusion: To accept my condition.