[A. from H.]

Hi!

I wrote here in May to talk about my thoughts and I was really glad to see, there are a lot of kind, helpful people here. During the summer, when I could rest a bit, I was OK. Although, I haven't told anyone in my family about it, and haven't got medication, I got somehow better. I'm silly, I know, but I'm still too shy to talk 'bout it. :P After the first week back in school, immediatelly, I got worse. My OCD is triggered by stress and awkward situations. I hate going to school 'cause, I don't really have there friends, I mean real friends, who I can go out with, or something. I have social anxiety, so a lot of students bully me ('Why are you so silent?' 'He is an idiot...' 'Probably a retard...') and make a fool out of me. I'm really depressed due to these stupid things. I feel really lonely and -here comes OCD- I have thoughs about killing them. I would never be able to do that, of course. :P Just these things make me so nervous and more shy. Other thoghts are: I'm going to Austria on the weekend and OCD says I can't go, because it attacks the things I like to do, or would like to be able to do in the future. I'm brutally stressed and think, I'm helpless and distracted. I just experience bullying in school and appreciation when I'm at home, or anywhere, where there are no people from my age, and I think it's quite extraordinary. I was never sociable, but I would like to have some friends from the late 10-s already... I hope to get better soon, but now, I'm doing totally bad. What do you think, all these thoughts are OCD and social phobia, or I have something else, too? I don't want to tell anyone about these, because I'm too shy. Oh, what should I do at last...? My mom was mentally ill, too, and I feel, she would be really anxious, if I told her this. Waiting for answers.

A.

[M3233]

I'm sorry your going through this! I would not worry about the diagnosis and let a mental health professional do that. (I know it's hard not to though. I have issues with that too) yes you should see a mental health professional if they are causing you that much trouble. You can always talk to your guidance counselor at school, teacher you trust, or other adult mentor if you don't feel comfortable talking to your mom and they can aide you with finding help and telling your parents .

[Dog on a Tree]

I think you should go talk to a mental health worker about the OCD and how it's returned and effecting you. It's wrong that you are getting bullied and this is something that needs to be sorted out ASAP. Is there any teacher or adult at school who you trust, that could help you?