[jj000]

Hello, this is my second time experiencing HOCD which makes you feel like your gay when you really, REALLY, don't want to be.

this ocd started 2 days ago, I can't seem to remember the cause.
I do not have intrusive thoughts, I just feel the need to repeat that I am not gay in my head. This issue has lessened in severity however, there is one thing that is stopping me from moving on.

In my head I say I am not gay, so then I check in my head, I say in my head that I will imagine a gay sex fantasy and if I do not instantly regret it and feel disgusted then I must be gay which I am not since I have been straight all my life, always attracted to women, physically and emotionally.[/B]

[Skeezyks]

Hello jj000: Welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

Honestly, I don't know what to tell you about this, jj000. From my perspective, I think this is something you're simply going to have to investigate with the help of a mental health therapist. Perhaps other members here on PC, who have better suggestions, will come along & reply.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!

[cincidak]

I call what you are experiencing at "what if scenario". They can be about anything. What if i get t-boned by another car and become paralyzed etc. Medication, and therapy has alleviated most.of this from my mind. I acknowledge the thought without judging it. Then let it pass right through my mind and out. I do not attach any importance to the thought because i know it is not coming from a rational place . Its a junk thought. Everyone gets junk thoughts, but those of us with ocd attach undue importance to these thoughts and so we obsess about them. Work on not judging this thought or where it came from. Accept thst its just a junk thought and try to let.it go.

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