[girlinterruptedbee]

I doubt myself all the time, and I always feel a sense of guilt. It drives me crazy. I had to call and report a crime the other day, and my OCD convinced me that I had told the dispatcher that I was the one committing the crime. I had to write as much of the convo down that I could remember, but since I did not remember it 100%, I was convinced I incriminated myself.

I also have hit and run OCD, so I have to retrace my route if I felt that I was being careless and I have phone/email OCD at my job. My OCD convinces me that I say/write horrible things to clients. I feel horrible after I hang up the phone and can't remember a conversation 100%. I have even found excuses to call clients back just to analyze their voice and see if I had, in fact, said something awful. And when it's email, I double check, triple check, and so on until everything finally registers.

My triggers I would say are the fear of no longer having a clean criminal record (job related) and the fear of losing my job (also job related). A career is so important to me, I don't know what I would do if I screwed that up...

Anyone else have similar struggles or can relate?

[*Laurie*]

I don't usually have that kind of OCD, but I know it is a common form of OCD. I sometimes have the 'what if I do something to hurt someone I love' OCD (for example, what if I go berserk and stab someone I love). I hate those stupid thoughts. When I have them I tell myself 'This is a meaningless thought.' And I envision a big STOP sign. Then I force my mind to think of something else.

[khaleesi_stormborn]

I doubt myself as well. I need to check emails and texts all the time, over and over again, because I think I might have been harsh, said something wrong to friends and coworkers, and - this is the oldest one - I always check if I contacted my abuser. It makes no sense and I know I didn't, but I check 3, 4 times my phone and computer history every time I need to use them.

[Moment acceptance]

At my last job I was supossed to send letters. But I opened the envelope even after I closed it. I checked if I put the letter inside. I reread what I wrote in that letter like many times. I was so not sure of what I did. But it was really doubting myself and I thought at that time I am so sure.... But I wasn't... I saw what I had done as natural.... Like I knew it was strange but...
But in a way I am still doubting myself... I am not checking home doors twice anymore... sometimes only car doors... I have to think why.... Good now I see it...

[AquarianSun]

I am the same way. I always feel I need reassurance in things, or feel like I done something bad when usually I haven't done anything bad but I feel I always do so I hear ya :/ I need to re-check emails, etc. too as well.

I know this sounds silly but I had a really bad obsession with psychics :/ Because I just wanted to so badly know if I was doing the right thing, is everything going to be okay, etc.