Think my thought has ended someones life

For about 6 years now i have always felt guilty thinking i can sacrifice someone with my mind. I would think things in my head "i would sacrificing someone for something to happen," then I would feel guilty about that. At the moment I thought in my head about 5 months ago "I would sacrifice someone for a team to win a match",that i was watching. The other team stuffed up their chance to win, and it was looking like the team I had the thought about was about to win as they just needed to convert a easy kick in nfl, which he would get almost every time. So i thought the opposite, "that i would sacrifice someone for the team to lose", to prove i dont have control. He missed the kick and they ended up not winning and now I feel guilty all the time cause of it, and spend all my time stressing and trying to prove to myself that I cant sacrifice someone with my mind. I think because he missed the kick, i have sacrificed someone(who wasn’t even relevant to the game). The guilt is there all the time.

Hi, What you've described is typical OCD thinking. Your thoughts are lying to you. You are not guilty of anything.