[T-Price]

So I'm not diagnosed with OCD but having looked up the disorder and talking about some recent events I believe whatever is going on is similar enough to it for some of the same coping strategies to help. So I got in contact with an old friend that I love hearing from and it's like all of my anxiety attached itself to our friendship. We live far apart so we have talked entirely through text for the last few weeks but I started getting unreasonably worried that whatever I had sent her last made her mad and made her stop liking me. I always asked because I do trust her and she was incredibly patient with me. It gradually became worse, with me sending multiple texts, especially if she was taking a while to respond. If she didn't respond for a while I began worrying excessively that she was mad at me or that something horrible happened to her. After a while intrusive thoughts started that i should ask her out on a date, asking someone out gives me unbelievable anxiety and my brain just got stuck on it for lack of a better term, i couldn't stop thinking about it and couldn't barely eat or sleep for three days until i told her that i liked a girl at my university in order to one, talk to her about it, even if indirectly, and two, sabotage any chance at a relationship with her in order to reduce anxiety. I talked to my doctor last week and he prescribed a low dose of Prozac which has helped tremendously, but im still dealing with waves of intrusive thoughts. For the most part they are more manageable now though. I have enough self control to not send her tons of messages if im afraid i said something wrong. Also, now that i can think about it rationally I realize she only likes me as a friend and my urge to ask her out was motivated more by anxiety and not being able to stop thinking about it than a desire to date her. Does anyone have any guidance on how to deal with this?

I'm not saying eckhart has every answer but he has helped me. I hope the link works. You can also find a book called "the power of now", my family doctor recommended it long ago. It might help. Hope you feel better soon.

[T-Price]

Thanks for your reply. I haven't had a chance to watch the video yet but i am better today. The intrusive thoughts and anxiety are far less intense and easier to control today.