[Catlady1212]

Hey everyone! Hope youre all enjoying this joyful day

I always hear alot about the thoughts but never much advice about the small things we do to act out on pur thoughts and contain them.

I have suffered POCD my whole life.

Possible trigger:

Scared of harming children sexually.

Its hard to write that without being triggered tbh.

Im 24 and got diagnosed with OCD when i was 14.

I managed it and got.over the disorder for many years but in the last four months i went through a stressful time in my life and the OCD has rebounded.

Possible trigger:

I have a fear of walking down the st and looking at younger kids in a sexual manner

... and sometimes i will give into my.ocd from being extremely overwhelmed with panic,

Possible trigger:

and say really quietly.under my breath that im going to hurt them

So quiet that i honestly dont think anyone hears and then i go home and hate mysekf and think

Possible trigger:

im a paedophile. Am i one?

I honestly just need reassurance..

I asked.this same question on yahoo answers and got.people telling me i shoukd be in jail which made me.litrually breakdown....

I was sexually hurt most.of my life by a family.member and im scared.to death ill end up luke them. My OCD always comes back full force and im nit.dealing to well. Someone out therd please help. My.doctors and even the hospital say they dont have the rescources and i need to go on a waitong list just to see someone.

Sorry again my keyboard is playong up so i misspelled some words im sure. I apologize.

[topherlee75]

I would like to respond to this, but cannot PM you as of yet, and this is a highly triggering topic. Please be glad you reached out, and just mutter under your breath for now, and return here if you feel the need. I will monitor until I have enough posts to PM.

[topherlee75]

My posts seems to be showing up slow for some reason, I will check back later to see if they posted...

[CANDC]

Originally Posted by topherlee75

My posts seems to be showing up slow for some reason, I will check back later to see if they posted...

When you posted this post you were a new member with less than 5 posts. You now have over 5 posts and your posts should show up instantly.

[*Laurie*]

From what you've described, I don't think you are a pedophile. I think you've described a type of OCD.