[hopefulforhappiness]

Maybe this doesn't sound like a big deal, but I can't stop ruminating over it again and again.

About a week and a half ago, I somehow found my doctor's work cellphone number and I really liked her as a person and I wanted to see what she was like outside of her work so I decided to text it for fun. I know it was really stupid but I had the compulsion to do it and I did. I said something stupid and random like, "We aren't going to do this today." and she replied after a while and was like, "Who is this?" Immediately I felt terrible so I just said I had the wrong number and to excuse me for my mistake.

Now I can't stop thinking about what I did and I feel terrible for bothering her and confusing her. I also feel like a dirty, creepy person. I don't want to harm anyone in any way, I just had the compulsion and interest and thought it would be fun in the spur of the moment, but it was a huge mistake and the guilt is eating me alive.

How will I ever be able to look her in the eyes again next time I have to go see her for a physical? I'm really scared she'll find out it was me (I used a friend's phone though) and then I'll die of embarrassment from the stupid thing I did and she'll probably think I'm just as weird and creepy if not more than I do.

Does anyone have any advice of how I can try to get over this and forgive myself? I feel so bad and can't stop ruminating over the situation. Will she find out it was me? That's the last thing I want.

-hopefulforhappiness

[Maven]

I wouldn't say anything. She probably won't find out if was you. If she does, just tell her the truth, that you were overcome by curiosity and didn't know what to expect. Tell her you won't do it again.

[*Laurie*]

I agree with Maven. Just drop the whole thing. Accept that you made a mistake and let it be in your past. My guess is that your doctor will have long forgotten about the text by the time you see her again.