[Maven]

My boyfriend just left a little while ago for a weekend trip (he'll be back Monday), but that might be a good thing right now. It's not, for a whole lot of reasons (if you know about my OCD, living in trash, having too many cats, boyfriend hardly ever around, etc., you'll know what I'm talking about), but in the past two or three weeks, I've gotten in a mood where I don't want to go out, or get dressed and live life, for the most part. I just spent the last four days (the most, so far) inside, either sleeping or messing on my phone. I eat, too, but I have to wait until my boyfriend brings dinner, which is just a sandwich (usually the same one, only 220 calories), and later I also have two yogurts and some chocolates. It's not much, and I suspect part of the weakness I feel is because I'm not eating enough or healthy enough. That's why I think maybe it's good I have to go out all this weekend. I hope I don't go back to staying home when my boyfriend gets back, but I suspect I will.

I dread having to get up, get dressed and everything, and I'm having some anxiety about the weekend (like, what if I forget to buy something I need, or something that causes problems with my OCD happens, etc.), which is one reason I hate when my boyfriend goes away.

My sleeping hours are all messed up, but I don't just mean they're backwards, sleeping all day, up all night. I sleep for a few hours, wake up and feel lousy, so I use the bathroom and come back to sit up and watch videos and read posts on social media for a couple hours or a few, then back to sleep for a few hours, and it keeps repeating.

I'm on a new dosage of Paxil, but this started before the increase. I'm wondering if I should call my psychiatrist about it. What do you think?

[scarlett35]

How long have you been on the increased dose? Do you think it will have had time to settle yet?

I empathise a lot with you. I don't think my situation is the same by any means but parts of it is. The depressive symptoms make the ocd even worse I think. I too am rapidly beginning to dread getting up and having to do stuff and I wake up in the night feeling anxious about things !

[Maven]

I've been on the new dose for about a week now, but the symptoms showed up before then.

Managed to get through the day, but I am exhausted. Everything kept going wrong. I was about to go home when I realized I forgot an important item, so I had to go to another store, I can't find my new earrings, two of my cats ran out when I came in, and it was a real headache to get them back in (but, amazingly, I succeeded), I was too late to call my sister, and I'm just checking email, messages, maybe a video or two, before going to sleep.

[scarlett35]

I'm glad you got through it. Sounds like you did really well especially as you are not feeling so great! Hope today goes ok for you

[Maven]

I fell asleep for three or four hours, and now I'm awake again! But I will try to get in some more sleep soon. Having a real meal yesterday definitely helped.

[scarlett35]

Originally Posted by Maven

I fell asleep for three or four hours, and now I'm awake again! But I will try to get in some more sleep soon. Having a real meal yesterday definitely helped.

Good! I'm sure it's easier to get energy if you eat a proper meal hope you manage to get a little bit more sleep too!