I pick my scalp

That's it. I have a bad spot where I have no long hair anymore.
I am ashamed to cut my hair at hairdressers.
Last time I went the hairdresser asked me what it was! I promised myself I would spot. I has been months. I didn't.

Didn't they just list this as Excoriation disorder? I have this too Mulan, you aren't alone on this. I pick until there is an indentation or deformity on my skull. It kind of caves in a bit and I'm losing some hair in other areas. It's as if my hair thinned but it didn't because I'm constantly picking and the hair follicles fall out or I pull strands of hair out. I had it since I was a child or 19 years. While doing school work, I've had this habit or disorder to relieve stress. I usually do it when I am in intense focus. It's rather embarrassing, I know because it's repulsive to others. I avoid doing it when I go out. One time I shaved my head and I had a visible huge red scab or scar on the lower part of my nape and I also had an open wound on the top of my crown. I had to use coconut oil as an antiseptic or antibacterial solution. Honestly, I don't know how to stop it and I know there are few therapists that actually specialize in treating Excoriation disorder/Dermatillomania. For some reason, I feel like I don't trust all therapist because I don't know the whole spectrum of their expertise. Whether they specialize in treating all disorders or certain disorders? Kind of like an Orthopedist, some specialize in the knee, spine, or lower back. I don't want to be given the wrong suggestions.

I am struggling with this. I have thick hair so I sort of hide it well. I am to embarrassed to tell my dr... I am a mess . I feel for u .