[Skessy]

I reached a breaking point today with a relative. I have a serious need for my room to be left untouched by everyone except myself. They entered without asking, and smelled horrible. I have a thing with germs, smells especially, and I got so angry that I took a candle they cherish and smashed it against their wall. I said horrible things to them. I called them names I've never said out loud before. And I think they were genuinely scared of me. I would never hurt them but they just kept standing in my room nodding texting not even acknowledging that they were destroying me by just standing there. I felt like I was being attacked and like they would ruin my room. They ran out of the room, scared, crying. I feel like I'm going to cry as well. Because I'm scared of myself now. I've never acted on these feelings before. I don't think they will ever look at me the same now, or trust me, or love me.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Skessy: I'm sorry you had this frightening experience. Thank you for sharing it here on PsychCentral. I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit. May I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/

There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are the chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) So please keep posting!