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CLEANING

I have OCD and normally am not bothered by bugs or cleaning things but at the moment am worried about how clean the house is and i want to make sure the house is spotless but its 11 pm at night and i think ill piss off the people in the other flats i need to clean the The kitchen, The Living room , bedroom number 1 . bedroom number 2. The hall and lastly the bath room i want to hover them as well as the dust them and cleaning tops my husband will not let me do any of them in order or at this time of night he says i have to do it when i wake up in the morning at 10 am but we have to leave the house at 12 noon as we have an appointment in town its not enough time to do all of the house , also i have to go to bed at 12 midnight but i dont think ill be able to sleep if the house isnt clean and i have to clean the whole house tonight .
my husband wants to do it tomorrow at 10 am but i can get up at 5 am and at lest clean the kitchen i can wash the floor instead of hovering it but he says he want to do it with me i need to do it on my own i must do this on my own he dont understand my OCD that well he just thinks can change my mind but i MUST DO THIS NOW ...

Eating Disorder stuff
Tw Numbers etc

I have an eating disorder normally i use a pro ed site but my husband has blocked it so i cant get on there at all he has password on it and i cant change that so no eating disorder sites
I will have to post here . I like to be very healthy more healthy than what i am eating at the moment but i like to eat under 700 calories a day my husband says he is to worry about the calories from now on as he is helping me to lose weight normally i binge eat but my husband has been keeping most junk food out the house so no binges apart from when am out the house at groups for my mental health they have choclate and biscuits and cakes there and sometimes fruit but i am finding it hard not to eat the binge food most of the time they are free and one other group you need money to buy the food i never have money apart from when my husband is with me
the fruit there comes in late and normally i have ate loads of crap by then but the women who bring in the fruit is normally late am starting to bring my own fruit and try to not eat the crap my husband makes me eat normal meals i am Obese and short really unfit but i have started walking i need to lose weight if i want hormones for becoming male the NHS will not give them unless my BMI is lower than its is at the moment i have pressure from my DR to lose weight but i also have pressure from my minster to eat ( he normally says things like i never pass up cake and he knows i have an eating disorder )
my husband will not let me engage in eating disorder behaviour but keeps telling me i must lose weight but when i do things like buying clothes and i feel upset about my body he says am not that bad and that other people are bigger than me ( as if saying that is helpful ) i know there are people worse than me but i know am getting to that stage soon
if i dont eat 700 calories a day eating fruit veg and water a day
i am now wanting to lose even more weight now i want to eat under 500 calories a day but my husband will never let me just eat this and am getting bigger and bigger eat passing day ...

Well... I don't know. Yes, you do need to be mindful of the neighbors. At 11 PM at night they're probably trying to sleep. But beyond that, it seems to me you should be able to clean when you want to... or need to. From what you wrote, it sounds as though perhaps your hubby is a bit of a control freak?

I presume your husband has your best interest at heart, at least when it comes to what you're eating. But it is true, I think, that even the best of intentions can be overdone sometimes. It must be difficult being surrounded by people (your husband, your minister) who think they know what's best for you. Personally I think it can be better, sometimes, if a person just succeeds or doesn't on their own. At least that way, you know who to congratulate if you succeed... or blame if you don't...