[sadveiledbride]

I have really awful intrusive thoughts.

Possible trigger:

Like a cheese gritter going through my feet, toes, tips of fingers. Someone slicing them off. Someone hurting me. Me hurting someone. I don't want to hurt people! I am scared of my own mind.

I worry that the darkness will overtake me and I will do bad things.

Possible trigger:

I would rather die than think this way.

My life is getting harder to deal with when these thoughts are containing and infesting my brain.

[Mopey]

Sweetheart, reading this puts me in mind of certain horrible self-destructive thoughts I used to have in a repetitive way. I called my therapist once about them when they were really bothering me, and she suggested I bargain with them. I.E. try to open a dialogue. What did they want from me? What was I willing to give? If they let me alone for awhile, what did they want in return? That sort of thing.

Don't know if it will help but it might be worth a try. All of these demons, sadly, are parts of our selves...

[sadveiledbride]

Thank you Mopey. I will have to try that. Thanks for the comment.

My mind is against me too... Don't know why, but it's a ***** to deal with.

[sadveiledbride]

Thanks for the comment Chem... hope you are well

Originally Posted by sadveiledbride

Thanks for the comment Chem... hope you are well

It seems to me that nothing will be decent for me at any time in my life... I can't become a scientist nor can I enjoy a social life... but at least, I am alive and I should be grateful for that.

[sadveiledbride]

Chem, perhaps we shall talk later about our struggles. I am glad you are alive. Keep In Touch

Originally Posted by sadveiledbride

Chem, perhaps we shall talk later about our struggles. I am glad you are alive. Keep In Touch

As you say, Bride.