Religious OCD (Possible Trigger)

My OCD is coming back, but in another form. Religious OCD. I am suffering. I am very scared. I hope I can get through this.

You are not alone! Religious OCD seems particularly hard because of the “just in case” factor, in my experience.

I have suffered from religious OCD before. I know it is very upsetting at times. Whatever triggered it can be treated though. I had to switch medications because of my intrusive persistent thoughts. I was free of symptoms for about a year and a half , but now I think I need a stronger dose. Do you know what triggered it, or is it just your chemical Inbalance acting up?

I have just been there, and realized you really can't worry about it if you do you end up like the pharisees who are outwardly holy men, but inwardly not. And then there is the problem of unholy thoughts, and just having them made me feel absolutely damned. Then I studied where they came from and what they are and I realised they aren't coming from "me." This is what I learned. I am not the mind, if I were I would have complete control of it I could simply stop being OCD if that were the case. But the mind is a tool, for instance I can control my breathing, but I am not my lungs and they continue working despite me. The mind I can control like my lungs to think about something, but like the lungs it continues working despite me and not always to my betterment, but I shouldn't stress about it because the mind is supposed to be alert and active in order for our survival so it needs food, shelter, water, and to mate and etc. But besides this I felt God would know if it was just OCD driving me towards religion so I wouldn't get any extra points. It is said man can do nothing, but begin the spiritual journey and through God's grace we are changed, but that is the thing we can't force ourselves on God the more we try the more elusive God is.

I hope you're doing better since you posted this. Here are links to 3 articles, from PC's archives, on the subject of religious OCD:

OCD, Guilt and Religion

Scrupulosity: When OCD Targets Your Religious and Moral Values

The Link Between OCD and GOD: How Religion Impacts Symptomology

My ocd is religions too today av said **** it to church and hello to buddhism church just upsets me not only this but other time i got upset my husband still wants me to go i dont think i can still talking about it

My OCD is also religion and morally related. I've been having this for over 3 years and my life has been completely miserable. I feel like I've fragmented my mind since then. Basically, I low-key believe that it is unfair for a being such as "God" to exist and be eternally superior to everyone. It just feels unfair and makes makes every human being a slave. I compare it to a child-parent relationship. If a child reaches adulthood and independence, then such person can now have complete control of their life and rightfully so, do as they wish. On the other hand, maybe a child even after reaching maturity and becoming an independent adult, never really is free from their parents authority. I the latter is the case, then every person is forever a slave of their parents and is not given the autonomy to live their own life. This is the dilemma that I am stuck with. I literally don't know how to solve this and move on.

I'm sorry to hear that, linuxb0i. Have you tried speaking with a therapist or a professional? I speak to mine about my OCD and it helps. I see you're a new member, welcome to P.C. I am sorry to hear that you're struggling. Posting here on P.C can help.

I have. I'm just starting to go to therapy again after having gone before on and off.

I'm not even sure that it's OCD. what I have. I've never been actually diagnosed with a certainty. Only Major Depressive disorder and Agoraphobia something. But my main issue is the first that I mentioned. Everything stemmed from that. I don't have much people that I talk to about my issue except mostly my mom. Does what I explained previously even make any sense? I kind of just want to get an opinion about how others see and perceive about my issue. I also understand if you'd rather not give an opinion about it.

hey again linuxb0i, glad to hear you're going to therapy. I am not quite sure what you describe is religious OCD - could and could not be, I haven't heard of what you describe before but that doesn't mean it's not OCD or disorder related. I would suggest maybe talking to your therapist about it and exploring the OCD subforum here. I'm sorry to hear you're struggling with your dilemma. best of luck.