Paranoia.

Really setting in badly lately dont know why but everything is starting to get to me I know it will be a matter of time before i start acting on things I am thinking.

Help me please.

TIshie Love

Tell me what can I do to help, whatever it takes


Paddy

Hi Tishie...

It sounds like your having some scary times right now.

I'm not sure exactly what you're experiencing here, but by the title of your thread it sounds like maybe some paranoid or bizarre thoughts?

I experience these type of things once in a while. Something that helps me is if I write these thoughts down on paper....then after a bit, I go back and I read them out loud to myself. This allows me to recognize the strangeness of my thoughts which A) validates that I am having the thoughts, and B) Helps me recognize how strange they do sound and recognize that they are just thoughts...and not accurate thoughts about reality.

Don't know if this would help for you or not. Try and remember that thoughts are just thoughts and they can't hurt you....other than being uncomfortable. Only your actions/reactions can hurt you.

Something else I learned....if you could visualize yourself sitting on a hill...at the bottom of a hill is a train track. Each uncomfortable thought that you have, is just another car on the train. You have a choice...you can sit on the hill in the sun and just watch as the train goes by....or, you can get on the train and ride the thoughts and allow THEM to TAKE you where they will. See if you can just let yourself sit on the hill and let those thoughts roll on by...it takes practice...but they will go by.

If things are getting to difficult for you...please reach out to T. And keep posting here. We'll be here for you!!

Shoot me ? Only joking I really dont know I think I need to increase meds and go to the Dr.

I like the idea of the hill I can do that I know I can thank you !

(((Tishie))) I'm so sorry things are getting so rough! Please do get into the doctor right away. Does Rich know things are getting this dire?

slow deep breaths hon. in thru your nose and out thru your mouth. slow!

((((((((((( Tishie )))))))))))))))))

I also really liked what Elysium said. The train and it's cars. Cool.

Back when I quit drinking, sometimes the urge would hit me. I would tell myself to put my butt in a chair and keep it there until that urge went away.

It's kind of like sitting on that hill and just watching instead of getting on the train.

I hope you feel better soon, sweetheart.

((((((((((((( Tishie ))))))))))))))))))

Yeah it sounds like you ought to get to the doctor. I do an exercise similar to the train exercise only I am sitting in my car at train crossing and when I start to feel myself following the train just about to get on, I can pull myself back by imagining my hands on the steering wheel, it has been really helpful for me.
Sending you lots of hugs

No I wont/cant tell Rich he is not that well himself and I wont worry him I have increased my meds and I will phone the Dr when he is out. I will do all the things he would make me do but without him.

Its not nice is it to feel like this

TIsh, my dear friend

Please dont be alone in this, I know how frightening it can be

Paddy xoxoxoxoxox

I am not alone thanks to you lot my friends on here I couldnt cope without you all and I mean that from the bottem of my heart.

Babe, take good care.......you got your good action mojo working by going to your doc.......

Any specific fears?.......has something happened to trigger it?

Yes, it is horrible.......I can hear how you feel......paranoia is a friend of mine also......

Let us know how you go at the docs......

In stillness

Michah

(((tishie))))

(((((((Tishie))))))) I am really sorry you feel this way! I wish I knew some kind of advice to give besides talk to your t, but I don't. If you ever need to talk though I'm here and you can pm me or anything at all! I hope things start getting better for you soon!

((((((((Tishie))))))))

Just wanted to say I hope the dr can help you soon and things get better. Contact me if you need to talk and don't want to do it here. Take care hun xxx

I think "paranoia" is just fears that are out of some other time. Not something to blame yourself for (or be attacked for by someone else), but just from another time, maybe not right now.

(((((((((((((((((Tishie))))))))))))))))))) I hope today is better for you.

Couldnt ring Dr had Rich around all day however I have increased my abilify 5mg so now on 25 mg a day and my carbamazapine from 600 mg to 800 mg, I have been on much higher dose so know its ok.

I will tell the Dr as soon as I can hopefully on Monday.

I am feeling a little better but I think its cos I have had company all day and havent really had time to think.

Thank you all so so much for your love and concern it really means so much to me.

(((Tishie))) I'm so sorry that you're going through this alone.

I am not alone I have my friends (especialy you ) here with me all the time ......

Of course we're here. I guess that I'm sorry that you're feeling alone. Rich will be very upset to discover that you've been going through this on your own. I'm sure he'll also be very proud of the steps that you've taken to take care of it on your own as well. I wish my magic wand wasn't broken.

Cant tell Rich but things will be fine I am telling it all its not real and so far coping.

I am now or rather seem to be jumping around all over the place in my head ?

I know the kid at school who was hitting my son and we told the school any more and we will get the police involved (it stopped it) well his dad is not spreading rumours about me and I dont need to go and speak to him. But its hard to not do so, but I wont.

I know (from the replys on here) that I am not hated on here but its still hard to accept.

I know lots of the things in my head are just that but its hard to not act on them.

My head wont stop.

I know it will in time I have to give it time.

(((Tishie))) Not only do I love you to bits, I've never heard ANYONE say anything remotely negative about you! You're one of the sweetest, most caring people I know.

Just to add to you making sure that you are loved by people I wanted to put something.

I have met you, and stayed with you long enough to know what I think is the real you well enough. I think you are a lovely person, you care a lot about everyone around you and do your absolute best to keep everyone happy. You are considerate, a great mum and lovely friend to know I can rely on to be there for me too. I am not just saying this to make you feel good, I'm saying it because I want you to know the truth about how I see you. I have been working on my next trip up (which I'll talk to you about another time and if I can get msn working) so you can remember that if I didn't think these things I wouldn't come all that way to see you and your family!

I hope Rich is ok too. Seems like you might be re-adjusting to having no kids around for most of the day, just think it's been a while since it's been like that.