[Monsieur]

Good evening to everyone viewing this thread,

To be honest it's feels quite difficult typing this post right now. And not because I feel emotionally overwhelmed or something to that matter, no, I feel fine, in fact today is a good day.

But it's as if there's this unexplainable mental block that keeps holding me back every time I come here and say to myself, "Alright, today I'm going to release my imprisoned thoughts on this forum."

Never happens.

It's as if I'm trapped in this vicious short-term remedy mindset that keeps repeating itself day in and day out. When I'm feeling extremely depressed and despondent it's as if all my energy, ambition, and sense of self and purpose has all been drained out of me. At that time I really do need some help, but I always feel too damn depressed and lethargic to come here and finger dance on my keyboard.

In the reverse, when I'm feeling quite fine I seem to think to myself, "Oh, why would I spend the time to post something when I feel completely fine right now!"

End result? Nothing ever gets done...

And to be honest, this strange mental block I always experience comes down on many other activities in my life. I am, in fact, a master procrastinator...

Anyways, sorry for my odd rant/explanation. I was getting quite upset with myself, I guess I just needed to get something out there.

Your generic disgruntled youth,
~Monsieur

Congratulations, Monsieur, you did it. The cycle has been broken. Please continue to post.