[salukigirl]

So this is my last semester as an undergrad. I'm taking Biochemistry plus the lab, Genetics, Parasitology and Senior Seminar plus I have to take a seminar course for an NSF scholarship I got. So my brain is already fried after 4 days of school.

Then I found out Monday that over the weekend my friend's mom died from pancreatic cancer and was only 50. Then yesterday I found out that one of my friends died on Tuesday "accidentally" (I think it was a drug od). Then this morning I found out that my friend from high school was assaulted over the weekend and died yesterday from brain trauma.

My one and only hope of a little good energy was our basketball game last night and we lost with 2 seconds left by 2 pts.

Then finally this afternoon I get some good news. My dad has (in 3 weeks time) dropped his bad cholesterol by 50 pts, upped his good cholesterol by a few points and dropped his triglycerides by 75 pts. He said his gall bladder pain has stopped and his joint pain is now subsiding. He said he cut back on drinking (thank god) and cut out all processed foods and has pretty much fixed his health problems that he has had for over a decade in less than a month. I can only hope he makes this a lifestyle change and not just temporary.

My brain doesn't even know what to do right now. I've been running to the bathroom at school to burst out in tears to then go to work and try and act like everything is okay. My bf has never really had death in his life and doesn't know how to deal with it so I feel kind of alone right now.

What really kills me is that since high school 6 of my friends have died from drugs or have been killed. One of my friends less than a year ago was gunned down in a gas station parking lot by a guy that had just been let out of prison for illegal weapons possession. My friend that just died yesterday was assaulted and died from that. Another friend became so depressed from his drug usage that he drove his car into a tree at 70 mph. 3 other friends have od-ed.

Just I'm only 22. This stuff isn't supposed to happen. And all of my friends were such good people. All of them were the kind of people that would drop everything to help you. None of them deserved any of this.

So I just want all of them to know that I miss them so bad. RIP Cory, T.J., Jordan, Scott, Juan and David. I miss you guys so much.

[perpetuallysad]

(((salukigirl))) I am sorry. Death is a really personal thing to deal with. I have nothing of any real consolation to say other than I'm here to listen when you want/need to talk.

[splitimage]

((((salukigirl))))

Wow - that's an awful lot to have to handle all at once. I'd be feeling completely overwhelmed and be bursting into tears too.

I'm really sorry that you've lost so many friends. That's just tragic. I just hope that you can focus on remembering the positive times you have together.

I'm glad to hear about your Dad. Yes, let's hope it's a lifestyle change.

Any chance of you getting some down time on the weekend to just relax and process everything?

Remember to take care of yourself.

--spliitmage

((((((((((salukigirl))))))))))

[salukigirl]

Thanks for the kind words everyone. I already have a quiz on Monday in one class and then a quiz Wed in another so I have some studying to do this weekend. Plus my undergrad assistantship project is coming to an end so I have to run all kinds of stats this weekend. I'm considering buying myself a day at a spa somewhere to just get a massage and just chill for a day by myself. Thanks for everyone's concern. I really appreciate it.

[perpetuallysad]

A spa day sounds wonderful and luxurious. I hope you do that for yourself.

[Renovation]

God bless you. You sound like a very courageous young woman with a great future in front of her. The only advice I can give you is that I'm sure your dear friends would not want you to suffer. Best of luck. Will send a prayer your way.

Be well, salukigirl.

[lonegael]

((((((Saluki))))))) (Warm and gentle huggs and a few shared tears). I am very glad that you seem to have bucked the trend. Courage, brave one. Sadly what isn't supposed to happen has a way of doing just that: happening. Best wished for your dad and I am rooting for you on the quizes. More HUUUGGGGGSSSSS