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Feb 09, 2010, 12:46 AM
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Hello. I am struggling a bit with some things and wondered if its normal. For about 10 years I lived in what I would consider a full blown delusional state with no "good" days. It was consistant and felt "normal" despite the fact it was delusional. I just lived with it, never questioned it, I was so far gone I had no clue and just became used to it. Arranged my life accordingly. So, within the last year I actually started to question my beliefs. That lead to a year of slow progress.more 2 come
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Feb 09, 2010, 01:00 AM
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Which has brought me to where I am today. Now I actually have good days and something to compare the bad ones to. Now I actually have triggers, I am aware of it all. Life is no longer consistant. Even though it is progress I find it harder to deal with than the 24/7 lies. Is this normal? I feel selfish almost as I know I should be greatful for progress. Even on paper and in testing, my progress appears as the opposite. I was so ignorant before that I appeared fine. more 2 come
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Feb 09, 2010, 01:05 AM
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i think sometimes progress does feel worse, but if you keep at it in the long run you will feel better
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Feb 09, 2010, 01:12 AM
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Now, the more I realize, the more aware I am, the worse I appear and feel. Is this normal? Its funny how before test scoring etc showed nothing and as I slowly progress(ed) it slowly raised to concerning top score levels. Just goes to show how unaware I was? I dont know, I just feel like giving up. Just wondering if anyone else has experienced this and has any advice. Thanks for reading. Oldsoul.
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#5
Feb 09, 2010, 01:19 AM
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your scores are 'top of the charts' because you realize whats going on. that realization proves you need to keep going. YOU WILL FEEL BETTER. hugs to you
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#6
Feb 09, 2010, 01:35 AM
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Thanks Jamie. Its all so odd. I appreciate the reply.
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Feb 09, 2010, 02:04 PM
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Keep on working at it. Good luck.
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#8
Feb 09, 2010, 02:41 PM
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It's sort of like waking up in the morning and thinking all you want to do is go back to bed. That's how I think of it. Suddenly the day is there and you have to deal with it. It gets better as the day goes on and you realize you really can manage it and it's not so bad, if not great. Hang in there, and huggs.
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