[amdx64]

Im writing this to help myself and others. We all have had our share of isses from being a victum to being the victimizer. Beware this is in your face finger pointing buttwhoopin so read at your own risk. This also might trigger some people to so please be aware of that to..

I feel many of us are looking for a place to fit. Like myself I cant explain how i feel to someone who doesnt know. They look at us and think we are crazy.

I was in chat for a while last night and we (i forgot who) was talking about how we cant trust our T, this is the same thing im talking about .. do T's understand us or they just doing it for a paycheck.

We are no different then the joe or kim down the road, just cause we have depression or what not doesnt mean we are a lemon. Its nice your dad or whomever has stress and can handle it fine .. some of us cant. That doesnt make you (or him) a better person then me.

Im myself and tired of being told that my issues are in my mind and if i would stop thinking about this and that i would be fine. Im just like you just a human but cause i dont know how to deal with my issues or need advice with issues i CANT control, doesnt mean its all in my head.

Your not better then me, ok so my problems keep me from doing things some of you can do thats fine but im not lying or playing games. You non issue people who have torn us, and hurt us, have made us feel like crap and untrust worthy. This is why we hurt and want to hide .. this is why we end out lives this is why we feel so alone.

You know we hurt and cry not cause we want to but because things inside us are just too much. So what if you level of things are stronger .. this isnt a contest. If your stronger then HELP us dont rip on us dont expect trust right off the bat.

Our issues is like sex while some may feel free to give it to anyone most of us have been victum to fake love and pain and end up scared for years cause someone wanted their fun or couldnt control themself.

If you people who think we are a bunch of crap .. then next time you cry cause you cant handle things dont expect me or anyone else to give you a helping we .. while we all have issues and sometimes we go crazy about it .. doesnt mean we are stupid so if you think that us people are not able to think for ourselves guess again .. what maybe a issue doesnt mean we are stupid.

[kimmydawn]

amdx,

i hear you. i understand your not trusting. i read your anger, disgust and pain. it's real. the stereotypes in this world, even by some professionals, are horrible to try to live with for the emotionally/mentally ill.

possibly you could print this out and give it to your t to help explain those deep feelings and stereotypes, and why it's so hard to trust?

be safe,

kd

[nothemama8]

IMO we are NOT victims, we are survivors of a horrindis(sp) illness, granted when we first get dx ,we feel like victims. In reality we must re-educate the public, teach them that we are not lepers and can be productive and accountable ppl in the communities, look at us we are creative, supportive, comppasionate, and loving.
So give us credit where credit is due
Angie

[(JD)]

((((amdx)))) My T's partner told me, quite wisely, that no one is better than another, just like a 6th grader isn't better than a 1st grader... just on another level.

[amdx64]

its not really directed toward my T and me (which i would give a fare rating) its about people of our everyday life the non belivers of us people who have trampled on us and for people who think its all a joke (like my father).. i know i shouldnt feel this way but i after the damage my own father and my wifes father and other people have done this is my sword to them and this time they can taste the blood.

While im far from being someone elses spokes person ..i know others share this same feelings and its to them cheers to the ones who ignore us and treat us as if were nothings